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All the pressure is getting to me. I feel like I'm about to fail at everything I've worked for. It seems that everyone has turned their back on me and I'm alone. I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I thought I'd be able to do this, I was trying to keep positive but it doesn't seem to be working anymore. I've sunken into this stage where I feel like I'm drowning and I"m kickin but the harder I kick, the further down I seem to go. Part of me wants to give up. Let everyone win and so they can say they were right and then they all feel bad for me and give a "everything will be alright" speech. But everything won't be alright n until you walk in my shoes and know exactly everything I'm going through, don't say it'll be ok. Why do people give me advice and say I'll make it on my own n they'll be there for me no matter what and then they turn their back on me when I reach for their hand? I'm tired of bieng betrayed and used. If I make it, it'll be very hard for me to trust anyone anymore. If I fail, I'm never trusting anyone again.
I want the world to go away...
I want the world to go away...