Do I ever cross your mind, Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
I can't sleep.
Arlene and Jorge just left and Adrian came by for Isaiah a lil while ago. He's taking them to the lake in the morning and Jr and Ray had already fallen asleep. He'll be by for them in the morning.
I was so depressed so I went to Adrians cousins house and got drunk. It was this liquor in a small green bottle and I practically finished the whole thing on my own. Now I'm sober and depressed again.
I lost my check. Yes..my check from payday. I don't know where but when I went to the bank to cash it, it wasnt there where i left it. I was supposed to pay my rent with that. I have late fees now. This sucks.
I hate Adrian. I hate him alot. I just hope that one day someone fucks him over the same way he fucked me over.
Arlene told me Orlando and Mike broke up cuz Orlando is living with his mom again. Who knows where Mike is. I knew that fucker couldnt survive on his own without me. Fucking BASTARD!!! *cries* I hate him and every other man on this Earth.
Lou stopped calling. I'm not sure why. Last thing I remember, he said he wanted something serious with me but was wiling to take it slow. He left me messages at work Thursday saying he was thinking of me and missed me. That night he went to his sisters to watch wrestling. He told me to call him at his sisters but I left a message saying that I didn't want to oppose or come off as having him "in check" so I told him to call me when he got home. No call......no explanation or anything.
I'm crying. Not over Adrian, not over Orlando, not over my check, not over Lou. Just cuz I know that if I was still with the person that I love, I'd be in another state far away from all this and I'd be happy. But I guess I deserve it since I was the one that fucked up, not them. I wonder what their doing now n if they ever think of me once in while. Nah, I doubt it.
I wanna be alone.
Arlene and Jorge just left and Adrian came by for Isaiah a lil while ago. He's taking them to the lake in the morning and Jr and Ray had already fallen asleep. He'll be by for them in the morning.
I was so depressed so I went to Adrians cousins house and got drunk. It was this liquor in a small green bottle and I practically finished the whole thing on my own. Now I'm sober and depressed again.
I lost my check. Yes..my check from payday. I don't know where but when I went to the bank to cash it, it wasnt there where i left it. I was supposed to pay my rent with that. I have late fees now. This sucks.
I hate Adrian. I hate him alot. I just hope that one day someone fucks him over the same way he fucked me over.
Arlene told me Orlando and Mike broke up cuz Orlando is living with his mom again. Who knows where Mike is. I knew that fucker couldnt survive on his own without me. Fucking BASTARD!!! *cries* I hate him and every other man on this Earth.
Lou stopped calling. I'm not sure why. Last thing I remember, he said he wanted something serious with me but was wiling to take it slow. He left me messages at work Thursday saying he was thinking of me and missed me. That night he went to his sisters to watch wrestling. He told me to call him at his sisters but I left a message saying that I didn't want to oppose or come off as having him "in check" so I told him to call me when he got home. No call......no explanation or anything.
I'm crying. Not over Adrian, not over Orlando, not over my check, not over Lou. Just cuz I know that if I was still with the person that I love, I'd be in another state far away from all this and I'd be happy. But I guess I deserve it since I was the one that fucked up, not them. I wonder what their doing now n if they ever think of me once in while. Nah, I doubt it.
I wanna be alone.