Boys and Men
Alright well here is some recap for ya:
Chris and I did get back together but he broke up with me because an ex-best friend of mine decided to lie to him. I stayed faithful and I stayed true to him, and I get broken up with for it. I'm done crying these blackened tears and so I know now that I just can't feel anything but the numb. I tried so hard to make him realize how much I cared: I talked about him damn near every minute of every day, I talked to him all the time so I really didn't have time to cheat on him, If I wasn't talking about him I was thinking about him, I told him I loved him every day even when we weren't together. But he wants to be cartered to by her and so I have decided to just let go. I will always love him because when I said it, I ment it. 'Ride or Die AAF' <--I ment and mean every word of it.
So, now that I'm single I'm not gonna lie... I do have a few boys on my hands. I've been talking to Bruce more and more ((I've missed that kid)), been getting closer to Jason, Max and I are gonna try to hang out on Monday, Zack has been calling me while I was at Rachel's so when I got home I call him and find out that he really wants to hang out with me soon, AND now there is Chaz... wow! I talked to him last night til about 6:30am this morning. I am so0o effin tired! Momma woke me up lookin for her make up at like 10am so I didn't get much sleep. Anyways, Chaz is a really nice guy. Kinda moving a lil fast for me though, he already told me he loved me. ((Reminds me of Chris)) haha Barbie vs. Brittney Spears! He liked my sister before he even knew me and was like, "Here how it goes. I love you and I love your sister... but there's a difference. I love you like I love Brittney Spears, but I love Lindsey like I love Barbie. Out of 100% I love Brittney 75% and I love Barbie about 12%." hahaha I'm sorry but that cracked me up! I told my sister this morning ((she was all jealous lol)), since the whole reason I was talking to him was because of her. She was tryin to pon him off on me and so she gave him my number and he called me, at first I didn't even know who he was. I couldn't remember him because he was like, "Yea, I'm the guy that lost my phone in your sister's car the other day when we were hanging out." <--::ahem:: He apparently has no idea how many ppl lose their cell phones in Lindsey's car! haha At first I thought I was talking to her boy, Joe. And then when he told me he was the 'black guy' ((haha)) I knew who he was. I've only hung out with him once, so gimme a break! Moving on.. I was talking to him last night and I guess boy is seriously crushin on me. I don't mind, I mean I am single so its all gravy baby! I'm just gonna sit back and let it ride. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I just got out of a relationship with someone that I truly loved, so I'm not too sure if I'm ready for a new relationship. All I know is that I've got some boys on my hands and I'm not too sure what to do. I mean I love my boys, don't get me wrong... But I love each and every one of them for different reasons. I'm just kinda confused right now. I've got some mixed feelings. But I sure as hell do know that when I do get a new MAN, he is NOT meeting any of my friends. Like seriously, I've learned my lesson and I'm not doing it again. I mean she lied because she is so unhappy with herself that she wants everyone else to be unhappy like her. She just couldn't let me and Chris be happy, because that is what we were. He bought me a fucking ring, you can't tell me we didn't love each other. I was willing to marry that boy, but I guess my love was never enough for him.
Alright, I'm done sitting around a sulking. I need to get out and enjoy myself since I haven't been able to do it in awhile!
OH! I talked to Jason last night, he is so0o damn sweet. I really miss hanging out with him ((and yes it was BEFORE Chris and I were together)), letting him hold me while we watched TV or just rubbin his back while he was on the computer. Of course he got off when I came around, you know how I am: gotta be the center of attention n all but he didn't seem to mind so much. He told me last night that he has been thinking about me alot lately. haha Well he's been thinking about me on top of him a lot lately lol That boy is so crazy. He confessed something to me, but since I know certain ppl read my site-I'm not about to hurt anyone's feelings. I don't ride like that. Especially when I am no longer bitter...
That's the thing with me, like I may still be getting over someone but I'm not gonna sit around and let other opportunities just pass me by. I made that mistake after Davey, I didn't try even really dating anyone for a year... Do you know how many great guys I just let pass me by because I thought I was in love and that him and I were gonna get back together. Then again, I lost my virginity to the boy so I guess that is why you can say I was kinda hooked on him. But anyways that is besides the point I am tryin to make. The thing is: I'm single and I'm not just gonna sit around while I have many guys trying to get with me. I lost one hell of a guy, Chris was my everything, but! When one isn't capable of handling me, there is ALWAYS someone else willing to try. Its not that I talk to guys while I'm with someone or anything, I just talk to them as friends and some of them end up having feelings for me. Chris's shoes will be hard to refill, but he isn't having a problem finding someone to fill mine-esp when she was my friend. But its cool, I know one of these days I will find someone that is willing to listen to me and not jump to conclusions and will love me for who I am and not what I can give them.
But hey, I'm gonna get goin. I'm about to go out with my sister and pick up Chaz, I can't wait to hang out with him today! ::big grin::
-xoxox
Carebear
Chris: I'll end This with a Hug N a Kiss.
Chris and I did get back together but he broke up with me because an ex-best friend of mine decided to lie to him. I stayed faithful and I stayed true to him, and I get broken up with for it. I'm done crying these blackened tears and so I know now that I just can't feel anything but the numb. I tried so hard to make him realize how much I cared: I talked about him damn near every minute of every day, I talked to him all the time so I really didn't have time to cheat on him, If I wasn't talking about him I was thinking about him, I told him I loved him every day even when we weren't together. But he wants to be cartered to by her and so I have decided to just let go. I will always love him because when I said it, I ment it. 'Ride or Die AAF' <--I ment and mean every word of it.
So, now that I'm single I'm not gonna lie... I do have a few boys on my hands. I've been talking to Bruce more and more ((I've missed that kid)), been getting closer to Jason, Max and I are gonna try to hang out on Monday, Zack has been calling me while I was at Rachel's so when I got home I call him and find out that he really wants to hang out with me soon, AND now there is Chaz... wow! I talked to him last night til about 6:30am this morning. I am so0o effin tired! Momma woke me up lookin for her make up at like 10am so I didn't get much sleep. Anyways, Chaz is a really nice guy. Kinda moving a lil fast for me though, he already told me he loved me. ((Reminds me of Chris)) haha Barbie vs. Brittney Spears! He liked my sister before he even knew me and was like, "Here how it goes. I love you and I love your sister... but there's a difference. I love you like I love Brittney Spears, but I love Lindsey like I love Barbie. Out of 100% I love Brittney 75% and I love Barbie about 12%." hahaha I'm sorry but that cracked me up! I told my sister this morning ((she was all jealous lol)), since the whole reason I was talking to him was because of her. She was tryin to pon him off on me and so she gave him my number and he called me, at first I didn't even know who he was. I couldn't remember him because he was like, "Yea, I'm the guy that lost my phone in your sister's car the other day when we were hanging out." <--::ahem:: He apparently has no idea how many ppl lose their cell phones in Lindsey's car! haha At first I thought I was talking to her boy, Joe. And then when he told me he was the 'black guy' ((haha)) I knew who he was. I've only hung out with him once, so gimme a break! Moving on.. I was talking to him last night and I guess boy is seriously crushin on me. I don't mind, I mean I am single so its all gravy baby! I'm just gonna sit back and let it ride. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I just got out of a relationship with someone that I truly loved, so I'm not too sure if I'm ready for a new relationship. All I know is that I've got some boys on my hands and I'm not too sure what to do. I mean I love my boys, don't get me wrong... But I love each and every one of them for different reasons. I'm just kinda confused right now. I've got some mixed feelings. But I sure as hell do know that when I do get a new MAN, he is NOT meeting any of my friends. Like seriously, I've learned my lesson and I'm not doing it again. I mean she lied because she is so unhappy with herself that she wants everyone else to be unhappy like her. She just couldn't let me and Chris be happy, because that is what we were. He bought me a fucking ring, you can't tell me we didn't love each other. I was willing to marry that boy, but I guess my love was never enough for him.
Alright, I'm done sitting around a sulking. I need to get out and enjoy myself since I haven't been able to do it in awhile!
OH! I talked to Jason last night, he is so0o damn sweet. I really miss hanging out with him ((and yes it was BEFORE Chris and I were together)), letting him hold me while we watched TV or just rubbin his back while he was on the computer. Of course he got off when I came around, you know how I am: gotta be the center of attention n all but he didn't seem to mind so much. He told me last night that he has been thinking about me alot lately. haha Well he's been thinking about me on top of him a lot lately lol That boy is so crazy. He confessed something to me, but since I know certain ppl read my site-I'm not about to hurt anyone's feelings. I don't ride like that. Especially when I am no longer bitter...
That's the thing with me, like I may still be getting over someone but I'm not gonna sit around and let other opportunities just pass me by. I made that mistake after Davey, I didn't try even really dating anyone for a year... Do you know how many great guys I just let pass me by because I thought I was in love and that him and I were gonna get back together. Then again, I lost my virginity to the boy so I guess that is why you can say I was kinda hooked on him. But anyways that is besides the point I am tryin to make. The thing is: I'm single and I'm not just gonna sit around while I have many guys trying to get with me. I lost one hell of a guy, Chris was my everything, but! When one isn't capable of handling me, there is ALWAYS someone else willing to try. Its not that I talk to guys while I'm with someone or anything, I just talk to them as friends and some of them end up having feelings for me. Chris's shoes will be hard to refill, but he isn't having a problem finding someone to fill mine-esp when she was my friend. But its cool, I know one of these days I will find someone that is willing to listen to me and not jump to conclusions and will love me for who I am and not what I can give them.
But hey, I'm gonna get goin. I'm about to go out with my sister and pick up Chaz, I can't wait to hang out with him today! ::big grin::
-xoxox
Carebear
Chris: I'll end This with a Hug N a Kiss.