And I whine whine whine all the fucking time.
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I watched Jesus Camp (download here, .M4V for iTunes) today and was very bored. I have to write a research paper discussing one of the main arguments from the movie. I think I'll use separation of church and state. Has anyone else seen this documentary? What did you think of it?
My mom gave it another attempt tonight and we both came away completely mystified and mentally weary. I don't understand what goes on in her head. She doesn't understand what goes on in my head. Yes, mother, I believe that, in the grand scheme of things, a human's life has no more intrinsic value than that of a "frog on the road". No, mother, I don't believe in a soul. We are the product of chemical reactions and it's all absolutely fascinating and mind-bendingly beautiful and complex. Yes, mother, I do believe that, ultimately, life is meaningless and empty and we are all just animals fighting for a fleeting existence on a rock spinning in a fixed orbit in a minuscule sector of the vast, cold, and probably not empty universe.
Except it's all a little more complicated than that - a point which she misses completely.
those x enamored: You know, my mom was talking to me.
those x enamored: About the soul and how I believe that our personalities aren't real (???), that we're just chemical reactions.
those x enamored: She said, "Well, if humans have no soul and are animals, why don't we just shoot people in the head for no reason? They're animals."
those x enamored: What the fuck kind of argument is that?
those x enamored: I said, "NO, because YOU are a human being, and you project the value you place on your own life onto other people - this is called EMPATHY. You value human beings because you are human being and you value yourself."
those x enamored: And, then, of course, there's the Golden Rule, and how people believe that they won't get hurt if they don't hurt other people - which is ultimately a logical fallacy -, and it's all really just self-serving behavior that we engage in in a subconscious effort to protect ourselves and ensure our continued existence. "If I don't hurt anyone else, no one else will hurt me."
"Victoria, I don't understand how there's this huge disconnect in your brain. You're so loving, so full of kindness and compassion, and when you talk about this, you're so cold, so detached - robotic." What am I supposed to say to that? This is the only thing we fight about, ever. She's not used to seeing me really, truly angry. She doesn't understand that I have to restrain myself and hold my tongue when she starts digging in because I don't want to hurt her.
But I'm hurting her anyway. I've kind of ruined her life.
She doesn't understand that this isn't about her.
She's worried about how people will judge her and my father and our family when they find out WHAT I AM - she doesn't even realize how fucking scared I am of it getting out because my family will either turn on me or they'll try to pull me back into the fold and I'll have to run. And I can't run. I'm not ready.
Just ... what the fuck ever.
I think that's proof of just how boring and trivial my life is.
Also, I'm sorry I haven't been paying attention to LJ, but I've been too busy wasting time. It takes a lot of effort.
I watched Jesus Camp (download here, .M4V for iTunes) today and was very bored. I have to write a research paper discussing one of the main arguments from the movie. I think I'll use separation of church and state. Has anyone else seen this documentary? What did you think of it?
My mom gave it another attempt tonight and we both came away completely mystified and mentally weary. I don't understand what goes on in her head. She doesn't understand what goes on in my head. Yes, mother, I believe that, in the grand scheme of things, a human's life has no more intrinsic value than that of a "frog on the road". No, mother, I don't believe in a soul. We are the product of chemical reactions and it's all absolutely fascinating and mind-bendingly beautiful and complex. Yes, mother, I do believe that, ultimately, life is meaningless and empty and we are all just animals fighting for a fleeting existence on a rock spinning in a fixed orbit in a minuscule sector of the vast, cold, and probably not empty universe.
Except it's all a little more complicated than that - a point which she misses completely.
those x enamored: You know, my mom was talking to me.
those x enamored: About the soul and how I believe that our personalities aren't real (???), that we're just chemical reactions.
those x enamored: She said, "Well, if humans have no soul and are animals, why don't we just shoot people in the head for no reason? They're animals."
those x enamored: What the fuck kind of argument is that?
those x enamored: I said, "NO, because YOU are a human being, and you project the value you place on your own life onto other people - this is called EMPATHY. You value human beings because you are human being and you value yourself."
those x enamored: And, then, of course, there's the Golden Rule, and how people believe that they won't get hurt if they don't hurt other people - which is ultimately a logical fallacy -, and it's all really just self-serving behavior that we engage in in a subconscious effort to protect ourselves and ensure our continued existence. "If I don't hurt anyone else, no one else will hurt me."
"Victoria, I don't understand how there's this huge disconnect in your brain. You're so loving, so full of kindness and compassion, and when you talk about this, you're so cold, so detached - robotic." What am I supposed to say to that? This is the only thing we fight about, ever. She's not used to seeing me really, truly angry. She doesn't understand that I have to restrain myself and hold my tongue when she starts digging in because I don't want to hurt her.
But I'm hurting her anyway. I've kind of ruined her life.
She doesn't understand that this isn't about her.
She's worried about how people will judge her and my father and our family when they find out WHAT I AM - she doesn't even realize how fucking scared I am of it getting out because my family will either turn on me or they'll try to pull me back into the fold and I'll have to run. And I can't run. I'm not ready.
Just ... what the fuck ever.
I think that's proof of just how boring and trivial my life is.
Also, I'm sorry I haven't been paying attention to LJ, but I've been too busy wasting time. It takes a lot of effort.