Wow...
The last couple of days have been rough, but today was a kickass day at work.
I thought that I didn't do this, but I realized today that I do... Part of me looks at my relationships at work, and my work role in general, as sort of an outcropping of Guy. I mean, he was there first, he knew most of them first, and I just sort of moved in after he was established as the kickass up-and-coming team lead all-around nice guy.
Today really showed me how much of a network *I* have at work. The people who support me, who like me, who love ME... It was really uplifting. There's just a group of people I've gotten to know and like really well, and today I realized that they've gotten to know and like me, too.
It was also nice to know that it wasn't all *my* imagination. Other people who see the two of us together *do* feel like we just fit, we click, we're made for each other, soul mates if one believes in that idea. (I personally don't, but I've thought before that if anything else described how Guy and I seem to mesh, I haven't heard it yet.)
I also finally moved out of depressed mode into angry mode. Nice burning pit of rage instead of empty hollow shell... it's a good feeling. (-; I know it's going to be an up and down while - hell, it's already been an up and down while - but for now I'm feeling solid for the first time in a couple of days.
It's a good thing. (-:
I thought that I didn't do this, but I realized today that I do... Part of me looks at my relationships at work, and my work role in general, as sort of an outcropping of Guy. I mean, he was there first, he knew most of them first, and I just sort of moved in after he was established as the kickass up-and-coming team lead all-around nice guy.
Today really showed me how much of a network *I* have at work. The people who support me, who like me, who love ME... It was really uplifting. There's just a group of people I've gotten to know and like really well, and today I realized that they've gotten to know and like me, too.
It was also nice to know that it wasn't all *my* imagination. Other people who see the two of us together *do* feel like we just fit, we click, we're made for each other, soul mates if one believes in that idea. (I personally don't, but I've thought before that if anything else described how Guy and I seem to mesh, I haven't heard it yet.)
I also finally moved out of depressed mode into angry mode. Nice burning pit of rage instead of empty hollow shell... it's a good feeling. (-; I know it's going to be an up and down while - hell, it's already been an up and down while - but for now I'm feeling solid for the first time in a couple of days.
It's a good thing. (-: