Mood swings at random.
Fuckin... i always start all my sentences with fuckin. fuckin your friends and shit hella influence the things you do. Even if you like something or dont like something if you hang out with someone who likes the things you like you will eventually like them. there are large crews with small cliques within them, like highschool. all the little groups are in some way tied together. Well what about the people that just walk around the courtyard and shit. whose tied to them? who knows because no one talks to them, they just wait til that wanderer comes to them. Kinda a bullshitty way to live in my opinion. I dont have a crew of friends anymore i just meander throughout different kindsa people and cant really get much of a crew that im in. Who knows, maybe theres even sub crews within the small crews. huh well i guess that means that im ... naw...who gives a fuck. all that i know is ive lost the closeness with pretty much all my friends and its hella shitty, i think thats kind of like a little taste of what after high school is like. Im going back to the CVHS for senior year so maybe things will only be shitty for this semester. Who knows i cant predict the future. Living is some straight bullshit sometimes, but it always seems to get better after a little while, And in the end i dont remember or really care about these times that suck. Because i know its been like this in the past but i dont even remeber that shit because fuckin why would i intentionally remember stuff that was not worth remembering. Oh well, i do have some very good things in my life that keep my at depression safe balance, and a loss of reality. like not having to go to school, my sister moving out kinda soon, im madly in love with my girlfriend, and fuck it i dont need to tell all you people that much about my own life. i think you got it.