shitty.
Is there a word for frustrated times 10? That is what I feel right now. I want to cry and scream and apologize and yell and insult and hate and comfort and help all at the same time. I know that I am right and she is wrong. But feelings are never wrong. And she feels hurt. So what then?
And am I just being self-righteous; should I just push down the pride and do things her way? Yet again? No, I really don't think so because that is what I always do and look where we end up? Right back in this spot. It's not me though, it's her. It really is. No one else feels the way she feels, no one is backing her up and saying she's right. I am the logical one here, and I've thought through it all a million times and there's no reasonable reason for her to feel the way that she feels. And yet she still feels that way. So what the hell does she expect me to do about that? She feels hurt or upset or whatever for things that I have no control over. If she's already decided that he comes before her, if she's already decided that I care about him more, if she's already decided that we can't be friends as long as I have a boy, then there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. You can't help someone that doesn't want to be helped. I tell her the truth. I tell her my intentions. I tell her that she comes first. But its just like it all goes in one ear and out the other because she already thinks what she wants to think and she perceives things the way she's already set herself up to perceive them. So no matter what I say or do, she's going to feel hurt. and blame it on him. of course.
I am ridiculously frustrated. It's been two days and I still don't trust myself to have the patience to talk to her. But we've been best friends since we were 12 and you don't just quit on that kind of thing. We haven't come this far just to not do my 18th birthday, not do prom, not do graduation together.
But I can not make things work if she won't cooperate.
Frustration to the max.
And am I just being self-righteous; should I just push down the pride and do things her way? Yet again? No, I really don't think so because that is what I always do and look where we end up? Right back in this spot. It's not me though, it's her. It really is. No one else feels the way she feels, no one is backing her up and saying she's right. I am the logical one here, and I've thought through it all a million times and there's no reasonable reason for her to feel the way that she feels. And yet she still feels that way. So what the hell does she expect me to do about that? She feels hurt or upset or whatever for things that I have no control over. If she's already decided that he comes before her, if she's already decided that I care about him more, if she's already decided that we can't be friends as long as I have a boy, then there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. You can't help someone that doesn't want to be helped. I tell her the truth. I tell her my intentions. I tell her that she comes first. But its just like it all goes in one ear and out the other because she already thinks what she wants to think and she perceives things the way she's already set herself up to perceive them. So no matter what I say or do, she's going to feel hurt. and blame it on him. of course.
I am ridiculously frustrated. It's been two days and I still don't trust myself to have the patience to talk to her. But we've been best friends since we were 12 and you don't just quit on that kind of thing. We haven't come this far just to not do my 18th birthday, not do prom, not do graduation together.
But I can not make things work if she won't cooperate.
Frustration to the max.