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Inside of stillness, & silence I've never before seen/I had a nightmare of light that burned my eyes

Sep 30, 2011 23:36

Tuesday, May 18 [Day 352]
About noon
Along the river by the bridge

For too long I've been... directionless. No, that's not the right word. Letting Fate take the reins, I've had direction, but... but I've not really chosen, just followed the pull, never knowing why. Just going, knowing I'll eventually learn, eventually be needed. Part of me knows, just ( Read more... )

dana, silence

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danashee October 1 2011, 05:43:20 UTC

This last while I have felt near to a ghost; as I follow Feidelma's child about unseen but perhaps felt. It is a nice day, with a light breeze and shining sun. And so decide to go for a walk instead. It is a relief to shape only the light glamour needed to blend in with the townfolk rather than the heavier ones for remaining unseen.

I wander down Silk Road and as I catch a glimpse of a slim dark haired figure I am reminded of Silence, the mage, who I last saw in a most curious dream that most likely was more than just a dream. And I think it would be a fine thing to have a friend to share this fine day with. I should like very much to see her again...I wish...

silence_excolo October 2 2011, 00:22:14 UTC

I toss a pebble into the river as my stomach gives a rumble. Look back to the Carnivale, but find I'm not really wanting to eat in the mess hall today. It's a nice enough day & my work's done, so maybe I'll spend some time in town. I could do with a walk to clear my head-

"Look, you got a lot on your mind-"
"That's not the point & you know it!"
"Sheesh, no need to bite my head of, Silence-"
"We're wasting time. The longer we deliberate, the more he..."

His hand on my shoulder. I can barely look at him.

"We've got to get him back. Whatever it takes."

He squeezes my shoulder-

My hand is gripping the rail of the bridge. Wasn't expecting that. What was that, exactly ( ... )

danashee October 2 2011, 01:07:30 UTC

I feel someone behind me and I turn, smiling, as I think I might know who it is. And yes! A very pleasant coincidence.

"A pleasant surprise this is, how fare you this day?"

silence_excolo October 2 2011, 21:25:05 UTC

She turns, smiling, as if she knew I was there. I find I'm smiling back a little.

"I'm- ok. How you been?" She looks good, although I know it's most likely a glamour. I wonder if what I saw in the dream was closer to her true appearance?

Not gonna think about her arms holding me while on horseback. I rub the back of my neck.

"Was gonna grab some lunch. Um, wanna join me?"

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silence_excolo October 25 2011, 07:13:26 UTC

"Did you think I would just let her go?" I hiss, my teeth close to his ear. The audacity of this mortal, mage or no, coming to my domain to order my hand. I feel his pulse, standing this close to him. It is quick but controlled, like always ( ... )

danashee October 26 2011, 03:48:41 UTC

She's talking about her family with her face all frozen, saying that her parents are long dead and a grandmother is mentioned. Then she starts talking about how she wished for her memory to start coming back sooner and then it did. At fist she seems lighter, happier, almost joking. Then she listens to herself and starts to think about that ( ... )

silence_excolo October 27 2011, 05:07:53 UTC

My head, gods, it feels like it's splitting! For a moment I don't even know where I am; everything is scrambled, my vision swimming green & blue, with lines of shadow streaking the light. I draw a ragged breath & realize it's me who's been screaming ( ... )

danashee October 29 2011, 02:21:32 UTC

It seems to like and eternity that we kneel there. Her scream in my ears like a spike. It ends with a ragged gasp for breath. She opens her eyes, and I think, I hope, that it's her I see looking back at me. She wraps her arms around herself.

Dana,I- That was... a strong one. Oh Oak and Ash it is! She's back. She looks so dazed, so unsure of herself. I want to hug her again but I don;t know if it would actually help so I don't.

I- I did this? I nod. Not sure what to say. How- did I hurt you? I shake my head at that. "No." Scared me, yes, hurt me, no. At least I am calmer now and as long as the knife stays buried it can't affect me. I might be able to put up my basic glamour again. Oh Danu, she's seeing me without any glamour! I feel so naked right now under her worried gaze, I look away and start picking bits of debris out of my hair.

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