The selfishness of punishment
Tevet 27
Days before the new moon
Day 227
The Abbey
Late afternoon
I have watched the confusion grow here, watched men forget their childhoods and women forget their adulthoods, monks forget their Goddess and parishioners forget their families.
And I just watch. I feel like a hidden one once more, watching their dramas play out, but in truth my watching is only to distract myself. I felt a flood that permeated everything, a ringing imperative and as it reached me I felt Her hand set me aside. Aside from my fellow man, once more. I know that my punishment continues, and what purpose is their to punishment if the punished do not recall their crime?
I have watched enough to see a pattern. We were taught to see such things, to build a structure around new situations. It is how we work, the Lamed Vev, when we are in a new place. There are anomalies, something I am becoming used to here, even in the short time I have spent in Excolo. The remarkable strength in that boy - I should check on him, make sure he is alright. I have not brought myself to seek out Nanse-Kam yet, but I should.
My sword is hidden back away in the armoury, but I have my daggers and my mail, and while I do not expect assault I shall be prepared for it.
Something has gone wrong here, disturbed the community, and as I have been set aside it is my duty to put it right. Thus, here and then to town.
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Days before the new moon
Day 227
The Abbey
Late afternoon
I have watched the confusion grow here, watched men forget their childhoods and women forget their adulthoods, monks forget their Goddess and parishioners forget their families.
And I just watch. I feel like a hidden one once more, watching their dramas play out, but in truth my watching is only to distract myself. I felt a flood that permeated everything, a ringing imperative and as it reached me I felt Her hand set me aside. Aside from my fellow man, once more. I know that my punishment continues, and what purpose is their to punishment if the punished do not recall their crime?
I have watched enough to see a pattern. We were taught to see such things, to build a structure around new situations. It is how we work, the Lamed Vev, when we are in a new place. There are anomalies, something I am becoming used to here, even in the short time I have spent in Excolo. The remarkable strength in that boy - I should check on him, make sure he is alright. I have not brought myself to seek out Nanse-Kam yet, but I should.
My sword is hidden back away in the armoury, but I have my daggers and my mail, and while I do not expect assault I shall be prepared for it.
Something has gone wrong here, disturbed the community, and as I have been set aside it is my duty to put it right. Thus, here and then to town.
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