"I'm so fucking happy i could cry"
i think i was happy.
i've been talkin to this really cool girl, and it just made me so happy to talk to her. it still does, i think.
all i want... i'm the kind who believe that you need love to survive. everyone has a certain thing they need to survive... you all know what you want and need, and i know mine is love.
its something, i've truely been neglected in my life. theres no love in my life... theres no, happy joyous feeling. and, i just... need it to survive.
so i thought i found it. but today, it was like shattered when this guy was introduced into the conversations.
i don't know why i got so upset... but i did. This girl seems so awesome, cause she is. and lately, ive been happy. in love so to say. i want her... and i really thought i would.
and now... its just.... lost. she has affection for this other guy.
it like... shattered my world. :(
seriously guys, if your gonna leave a comment, please... i dont want to hear you tell me "oh itll be okay, you'll find her eventually" cause right now, i feel like if eventually isn't now, there'll never be an eventually.
Sometimes, i wish i wasn't so emotional...
as i always said:
"Nice guys finish last"
Matthew