Inspiration When You Least Expect It
So those of you who read this have seen some, shall i say rather "not so pleasant" entries. meh. I'm not proud of it. I just needed to vent.
So to make up for my "not so pleasant" entries, ill tell you this.
Last night, i had another night thats becoming more usual than unusual. John messaged me to go to a resturaunt. I like how its like 10 to 11 at night when we do this. but steve and john work til late, so its their only chance, and there hungry. So i say sure, why not. It ends up being John, Steve, Jason (not so very font of him but whatever), and myself. We spend 2 hours there, for we had alot of food, and the waitresses know us, we're their late night usuals. They brought us a pitcher of drink, and that was a big thing. So we finished it, with our original drinks, cause we had to. :P but we just sat there and talked alot. About an appartment, about snakes, about steve's relationship problems and about relationships in general, sex... just... anything. Then there would be moments of john and steve quoting comedians and we all would have a laugh. Talking like that, like mature and shit, just talking... is so enjoyable. It's something i rarely get to do, but it was great.
We drop john off, and steve goes to take me back home, and sitting alone in the backseat of his car, looking out at the night sky and the stars, something happened at that moment. It felt as if all my problems (sorrows, anger, anything of that nature) had just... vanished. I didn't worry about what had happened with my mom, i didn't care. i just... didn't think about it at all. it felt as if i had a clear thought and a clear moment. Looking out that window in the night sky, dwelling on the memories of that night, and all the good times i've had, it made me think. It made me realize how much i do enjoy being alive... for the good moments in life. The moments that, no matter how short lived, will last a lifetime. I appreciate life but it gets so hard to be able to enjoy it when we fight and argue.
Just figured you all needed to hear that. :P
Matthew