"This isn't real life! This is a fairy tale."

[eskaia]

I think it's all settled. Words said, vows exchanged...

Just...have to keep breathing.

...it's just wonderful to know I'm not crazy. Wasn't insane.

So nice to have that connection again, to smile that freely without the use of alcohol or drugs.

Ahhh...like a wheel. Funny how so much time goes by, and then those moments happen where it feels like nothing has passed, like...it was a dream.

I commented things like this don't happen in real life.

He just smiled and exclaimed this wasn't real life...this was a fairy tale.

I really do adore this time of year.

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So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you,
Saying I'm sorry for that night.
And I go back to December...

It turns out freedom meant nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had in you and I --
I go back to December, turn around, and make it all right.
I go back to December, turn around, and change my own mind.
I go back to December all the time...