Splashing out with my Baby
Yesterday Gary's parents gave us some money for Easter. So we went and got a takeaway and a movie. We rented Disturbia which we both really enjoyed. I gasped and stuff in the appropriate places and it was very enjoyable. I really like Shia LeBeouf. Me and Gary loved watching Even Stevens when it was shown on the tv. Such a great actor. I haven't seen Transformers yet, but I'm looking forward to seeing it, and Indiana Jones when it comes out to rent eventually - don't think it's Gary's kinda movie!
I have to stay with my parents during the week. It means I don't have to spend the whole week days on my own, works out cheaper for groceries, and means if I have any interviews in the city I can get there. I miss Gary enormously when I'm away and since most of my issues are either emotional or anxiety based, it doesn't tend to help. He's my support and security, and I find it hard to let go. I don't want to let go, and I won't.
Today we had to go into the centre to do some shopping and hand in a job application. It made us both feel terrible. Seeing people shopping in expensive food shops for their every day food. If only we could treat ourselves. Or just not worry about it. I feel terrible I've put Gary in this situation. Not so much that we have no money, but that he's constantly thinking about it. He often seems down, and deep in thought, and I don't want him to have a break down because of over thinking. I hate it.