That was one hell of an ending to 2019. After my rollover accident I became utterly depressed and distant all aspects of my life. I'll update you guys on that all later. The one thing I wanted to post about is that I started last year with the notion that I would work out more do more of a cleaning schedule no smoking no drinking. The day my mom ( Read more... )

I took a hiatus from this and my non-smoking resolution. The pain I’m experiencing has not lighten up and I’m always sick, feeling like I’m going to vomit if I’m not vomiting.. Can’t drink caffeine, let along alcohol, due to this pain and feeling so ill as of late. It fucking sucks. I have never felt like this while pregnant. It has a lot to do ( Read more... )

I went to my friends house Friday and on my way home my timing belt broke. This was the third car Ive had since 2018 so now I'm on the prowl for a 2019, off of the line, no problems car.. Thinking Cruze Hatchback.. If all else fails, my friend will sell me her car for 500 bones.
I'm drinking Dirty Bastard.. Ive been smoking (not today, though).. I ( Read more... )

Frustration is my state of mind as of late and is becoming my state of being. Lately, I have requested hang out sessions with a few people without acknowledgment and last night was my last straw. I deleted my Facebook with the thought that anyone who wants be around me or talk to me will reach out to me. If you don’t know where I live or do not ( Read more... )

Maybe not an appropriate title but I feel as though it applies..

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I definitely needed a few days to reset and get my thoughts together. I guess I should finish from where I left off..

I finally have closure!

I can't refer to the guy I've said is the love of my life as the love of my life anymore. I cannot trust him and have lost a lot of respect for him. Our connection isn't like it was. Months after we broke ( Read more... )

Smoking is not something I crave but have a hard time saying, "No," if its there and Im stressing. Last night I help my friend with her hair and, well, she didnt buy enough product. I went out for her and got some things. Oh well. She let me hit her pen.
It turned out OK.

I have a date tonight at 8p. He's not bad looking. If I dont update after this ( Read more... )

Court went OK. They reduced the child support I receive from $200 to $123. I agreed to this and he was grateful. I was a bit fearful it would reduce to nothing or to me possibly paying him, so.. Victory? Definitely better than I expected..
When i left I called my friend, the love of my life, to see about when I could stop by. Fought to find the part ( Read more... )

Work has been very overwhelming. I can't seem to keep things straight. There are disorganized notes all over my desk, piles of work just waiting to be done. It's year end - I expected no less. What I didn't expect is a huge new account to be thrown at me while I'm taking on the work of someone else who left a few weeks back. 32 drivers, 4 days a ( Read more... )

Two things: 1) I made the active choice to not consume meat by picking the pepperoni off of my uncooked pizza and replacing it with chopped green pepper. 2) smoking the other day put me in a funk yesterday. I didn't feel well and had a massive headache. I couldn't pick a better way to end that to be frank ( Read more... )