Rose Colored Glasses
For the past few weeks I have been struggling with a few things... each of those things was based around a fear I have of being alone... a fear that is totally unfounded...
Tonight, I felt like I was being called to go to church... the church I go to (mind you, I don't go regularly... even though I feel like I should) is a small one, but every single time that I have been there, the message that was taught always pertained to what I was feeling that day, or that week. It was always sort of an energizer for me... anyway, tonight I felt REALLY called to go to this church... so I went, and as always I was welcome with open arms... I sit down, and the message starts, and from the very first sentence that was spoken I was totally wrapped up in what was being said. It was like God had taken all the prayers I had prayed in the last few weeks, all the fears I had experienced, and all the pain I'd been feeling, and lead the speaker (Whose name is Colin by the way) to give me answers to it all.
The main message of the night was "Hope". I hope I get this quote right, but he said that "Faith is simply hope in action". That throughout the Bible God calls us to hope, to have the faith of a child... Colin said that we have only two choices in this life, no matter the circumstance... we can hope, or we can fear... All fear is, is the lack of hope... And what's a world without hope? ...I know that I'm not coming across as clearly as Colin did, but bear with me. =)
God also calls us to be patient in our hope... and to have Faith that what He says will come to pass. Tonight, when Colin was talking, I felt like He was speaking directly to me... like God was speaking directly to my heart. I feel as if He was calling me to hope! To have no fear! And to have FAITH in Him. Two things I have quite a bit of trouble with are worrying about things that I have no control over, and being very impatient... in tonight's message, I know that God was telling me to let go of that fear, and to be patient, and wait for Him.
I can't put into words how deeply tonight's message touched me, and how much it meant to hear it... It was like, before hearing this I was staring through gloom, or a dark veil, to see everything... everything felt colder, and more distant... and now, it's as if I finally opened my eyes enough to see God waving the gloom away, so that now everything is more vibrant, and rich! I left church feeling like a new person... like God had removed a burden from me, and given me a lovely pair of rose colored glasses to see the world through. =)