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[ephemeralsummer]

I had a great time playing soccer with Justin today. When I came home, though, I felt that horrible lonely, isolated feeling again. It is such a strong emotion that it makes me feel as if I am constantly shuttering. It's not like I am diagnosed with depression or anything but this year every now and then I just feel lost and helpless. I had to

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[cocoafiend]

I'm really sorry you're feeling badly... But I can understand, because I feel lonely a lot of the time, too. D: It's not feeling sorry for yourself, sometimes you just feel lonely, and there's really nothing you can do about it but try to distract yourself from feeling that way. I can definitely understand how being around people who have really good friends makes you feel more isolated... But I'm really sorry that you're feeling like this. D

[ephemeralsummer]

thanks you make me feel like I am not the only one who feels this! That would be really fun to go camping! I love camping!

[katschmiddy]

You know what, Sara's right. We totally should go camping. My dad and I go all the time, like every year twice or something, but I thought it was too dorky to do with anyone else. And hey Mal, you can tell us stuff. We like doing new and different things. Really, no lie. I know that sometimes I used to get lonely because I feel like even though I had good friends, there was no one like me enough to really understand me. But trust me: I figured out that I didn't want anyone better at being me than me! I like having different interests than even my close friends and feeling unique. All of us have some overlap with each other, and all of us have our own thing. That's good, Mal. Being in a clone-ish group of people definitely has more downs than ups. Being in a unique but supportive group of friends is way better. And dude. We would totally go camping with you, or whatever you want to do!!! Be who you want to be, but respect and get involved in other people's interests, even if they may seem too different at first. That's what friendship

[cocoafiend]

I couldn't have said it any better than you - it's so much better to find a group of friends where you have overlapping interests, but not EVERYTHING is the same. It's good to be unique while still having a few interests that everyone shares. :D
We have to plan a camping trip sometime after you guys get out... We have to make sure it's before Evelyn has to go! D: ...Then again, would Evelyn want to go camping? I wouldn't have last year, but after senior retreat when it was SO MUCH FUN, and now that I'm less anal about dressing nicely and wearing make-up all the time, I'd love to go, especially with you guys! :D
I'm really serious, let's ACTUALLY plan one, not just say we will and never do it. Where are good spots to go camping? Who would want to go? I don't know anything about it, really, because I don't go that often... But it's so much fun! We should go somewhere near water so we can swim, otherwise it's going to be UNBEARABLY hot and miserable. ;D

[ephemeralsummer]

yeah, you are right about the whole clone-group idea. I am defintely happy that we are not all alike! I guess I should just speak out more about what I like to do once in a while.

[ilana_frombklyn]

Mallory, I can totally relate to what you're saying. And you know what? I have a really shallow theory as to WHY. I always used to feel that way when I did something cool in Austin and then came home, and now that I'm in NY I never, ever feel that way. I think that its living in the suburbs that'll do you in. Just a thought.

Also I agree that you should plan camping trips with your friends. And if that doesn't work out then you should find people in your area that like to do that stuff and, gasp, meet new people! Best thing ever. Try nols.edu

[ephemeralsummer]

LOL you are so funny! Maybe you are right about the whole suburban concept. I am kind of feeling like every day is exactly the same (I love that NIN song). Also, I called Justin( my prom date) a little earlier and I asked him if we could do something tonight. I might be able to meet his friends. So I am meeting new people! Hurray! But, I realized after reading these comments that I really love my friends and that they are always there for me, which makes me feel much happier than I was feeling yesterday.