Now Or Never For dealing_death

[encom_flynn]

It felt like forever since they had met that night Selene kept Sam’s ass from being arrested. Since that take they had spent that night at the carnival, various nights in and out of the Grid and their places. Sam had never felt happier with things at the moment. The way they play fought, had fun and just relaxed around one another was like nothing

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[dealing_death]

"Sam...." Her heart was pounding in her chest. Selene never expected him to say that. Not that. Shock filled her eyes. "Oh my god..." She had rarely ever been rendered speechless. This stilled her heart and stole her breath.

While all she should be thinking about was her answer she couldn't help but think about who would hurt him for being this close to her. His words scared her. Not because she was scared of him, but of what risk this put him at.

For the longest time she just stared at the black box and the ring sitting inside.

"Sam...." She swallowed hard. Selene didn't want to lose him but she wasn't sure she was ready for this. Not after the ringer Tommy had put her through. "Can this be a promise?" Her eyes were scared and nervous as she looked up at him. The last thing she wanted was to chase him away but she needed more time. "I just...need a little more time."

[encom_flynn]

No it wasn’t the answer he had hoped for but as her words sank in Sam didn’t stop staring at her. Those eyes he loved now looked scared and very different to the ones he had just been staring into. His heart missed several beats. “I know this is a big step but I can’t see my future without you in it.” He sighed and let the serious expression turn into a faint smile, his hand came up to cup her face and keep her looking at him.

“Take all the time you need. I won’t be going anywhere.” Sam leant in and gave her a kiss. It was softest kiss that was meant only for Selene andhen it ended he wrapped his arms around and held her as the fireworks went off in the distance. At least out here on the balcony they were alone and away from everything else. “I love you. I’ll always be here when you are ready.”

Resting his head on top of hers he pulled his jacket around her a little so she could keep warm.

[dealing_death]

"I-- I was humiliated the first time. Personally, professionally....I've never been hurt like that before." Selene felt she owed him an explination. How could she be so cold as to turn this proposal away? Tears were burning her eyes as she continued trying to explain.

"He took everything from me. Part of myself...my child. He embarrassed me publicly.....I'm scared Sam...I'm so scared." She took the ring out of the box and put it on her right hand instead of the left. Tears were falling down he cheeks and in that moment she hated herself for what she must be doing to him. No man would take such a rejection so well. She was shocked he was still standing there. "A promise. I promise. Just.....I need more time."

[encom_flynn]

He held her in his arms, his heart feeling like it at sunk in his chest. “I know you’ve been through a lot which is why I’m not sad. I want you to take that time and know this is what you want rather than just say yes. You need to be sure and if you’ve been burned before it’s understandable you don’t want to walk through the fire just yet.”

Sam took in another deep breath and felt the front of his shirt getting wet through obvious tears. He started to stroke her hair, playing with it like he usually did when they were in bed. “Don’t cry. I told you I’m not going anywhere.”

“When you look at that ring I don’t want you ever feel bad or think you have hurt me. I want you to know that I love you, I always will do and I’ll always be there to catch you if you fall. I promise.” He kissed the top of her head and thought about taking her to the bedroom, just to curl up and be with one another.