Fanmix: Had a complicated childhood (1/3): Simon Tam
Fandom: Firefly/Serenity
Subject: Simon Tam
Title: Had a complicated childhood
Notes: This was a request I got from the highest bidder on livelongnmarry last summer. I've had this sitting around for ages in preparation to share but waited because I knew there was more to add - namely a River compilation. Well, River actually has two disks and I want to balance Simon at some point. But for now here's Simon!
Had a Complicated Childhood - Simon Tam
01 Within Temptation - Hand of Sorrow So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed / Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind / So many years have passed, toward a noble land of lies / Will all our sins be justified?
River: But, I understand. You gave up everything you had to find me. You found me broken. It's hard for you. You gave up everything you had.
Simon: Mei-mei, everything I have is right here.
02 Alanis Morissette - Perfect Be a good boy / Try a little harder / You've got to measure up / And make me prouder
Gabriel Tam: You will repay me by becoming a brilliant doctor. That's the deal. Dedicated source box -- brilliant doctor.
03 Tom McRae - Got a Suitcase Got Regrets I`ve been a gifted thief / Stole everything for the cause / I never had fingers as light as yours
River: I didn’t think you’d come for me.
Simon: Well, you’re a dummy.
04 Devics - My Beautiful Sinking Ship Is this the end, the top for me? No. Chin up, Stiff lip,
Gabriel Tam: This is a slippery slope, young man. You have no idea how far down you can go, and you're not taking us with you.
Simon: Meaning what?
Gabriel: I won't come for you again. You end up here, or get mixed-up in something worse, you're on your own. I will not come for you.
05 Radical Face - Wrapped in Piano Strings They cut your eyes wide open / And pour into your precious head / My reach don't go that far dear / But please oh please don't let them in
Zoe: Will she be alright?
Simon: I don't know if she'll be alright. I don't know what they did to her. Or why. I-I just need to keep her safe.
06 Coldplay - The Scientist Nobody said it was easy / It's such a shame for us to part / Nobody said it was easy / No one ever said it would be this hard
Simon: I don't know if I'll be able to help her here; and I need to help her.
Inara: Simon, you are. Leaving your whole world behind? That's incredibly selfless.
Simon: Yeah. I *selflessly* turned us both into wanted fugitives.
07 Regina Spektor - Somedays Some days aren't yours at all, / They come and go as if they are / someone else's days / They come and leave you behind / Some else's face / And it's harsher than yours
Mal: Doctor could be called a lot of things. Coward wouldn't be one of 'em, though.
Inara: You don't think they were arrested, do you?
Wash: Worse than that, probably. Looks like maybe they got snatched.
08 Alison Krauss - It Doesn’t Matter It doesn't matter what I want / It doesn't matter what I need / It doesn't matter if I cry / Don't matter if I bleed
Early: You ever been shot?
Simon: No.
Early: You oughta be shot. Or stabbed. Lose a leg. To be a surgeon, you know? Know what kind of pain you're dealing with. They make psychiatrists get psychoanalyzed before they can get certified, but they don't make a surgeon get cut on. That seem right to you?
09 Sarah McLachlan - Full of Grace I feel just like I'm sinking / And I claw for solid ground / I'm pulled down by the undertow / I never thought I could feel so low / Oh darkness I feel like letting go
River: We're lost... lost in the woods.
Simon: It's going to be okay. They'll find us. Once the Captain realizes what happened, they'll come.
[Serenity takes off. Simon looks stunned]
Stark: See there? No one's coming for you. You just keep moving.
10 Holly Cole - Make It Go Away This is not the way you should see me / This is not the face I recognize / Could I lay my head down here for a moment?
Zoe: This is really not my area of expertise, Doctor. I tend to be putting these into people, more than the other thing.
Wash: Can I mop your brow? I am at the ready with the fearsome brow-mop.
Simon: You got the bullet. [beat] Okaaay. I'm just gonna pass out for a minute, but you're doing great.
11 Tom McRae - Human Remains Those things that I've lost and things that I've sold / This case is now closed the trail has gone cold
Zoe: How'd you do it?
Simon: Money. And-and luck. For two years, I couldn't get near her.
12 Poe - Haunted One more look at the ghost / Before I’m gonna make it leave / Come here / I’ve got the pieces here / Time to gather up the splinters
Mal: My point is could've been you she might have shot just then. The doctor, as you just made note of. And who exactly could fix you? Not nobody. We're deep in space, corner of No and Where. You take extra care with her, 'cause we're very much alone out here.
13 Goo Goo Dolls - Iris And I don’t want the world to see me / Cause I don’t think that they’d understand / When everything’s made to be broken / I just want you to know who I am
Book: But she's doing better.
Simon: I've tried a couple different medications. She's sleeping better, but nothing really stable. I'll keep trying. Certainly got enough drugs on hand.
Book: Yes, I'd forgotten you're moonlighting as a criminal mastermind now. Got your next heist planned?
Simon: No. But I'm thinking about growing a big black mustache. I'm a traditionalist.
14 Muse - Butterflies and Hurricanes change everything you are / and everything you were
Regan Tam: Simon, this is paranoid. It's stress. If they heard you talking like this at the hospital, it could affect your entire future.
Simon: Who cares about my future?
Gabriel Tam: You should.
Regan: You're a surgeon in one of the best hospitals in Capital City. On your way to a major position, possibly even the Medical Elect. You're going to throw all of that away? Everything you've worked for your whole life?
15 Semisonic - FNT I'm surprised that you've never been told before / That you're priceless yeah, you're precious
Simon: My way of being polite or however it's... well, it's the only way I have of showing you that I like you. Of showing respect.
Kaylee: So, when we made love last night...
Simon: When we *what*?
Kaylee: [laughs] You really are such an easy mark.
16 Radical Face - Welcome Home, Son You were never supposed to leave. / Now my head's splitting at the seams. / And I don't know if I can...
Simon: I got a few letters at first, and then I didn't hear for months. Finally I got a letter that made no sense. She-she talked about things that never happened, jokes that-that we never... It was code. It just said... ”They're hurting us. Get me out."
Download at: Sendspace (77MB) - All song tracks (16) are MP3 files. Artwork included.
Subject: Simon Tam
Title: Had a complicated childhood
Notes: This was a request I got from the highest bidder on livelongnmarry last summer. I've had this sitting around for ages in preparation to share but waited because I knew there was more to add - namely a River compilation. Well, River actually has two disks and I want to balance Simon at some point. But for now here's Simon!
Had a Complicated Childhood - Simon Tam
01 Within Temptation - Hand of Sorrow So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed / Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind / So many years have passed, toward a noble land of lies / Will all our sins be justified?
River: But, I understand. You gave up everything you had to find me. You found me broken. It's hard for you. You gave up everything you had.
Simon: Mei-mei, everything I have is right here.
02 Alanis Morissette - Perfect Be a good boy / Try a little harder / You've got to measure up / And make me prouder
Gabriel Tam: You will repay me by becoming a brilliant doctor. That's the deal. Dedicated source box -- brilliant doctor.
03 Tom McRae - Got a Suitcase Got Regrets I`ve been a gifted thief / Stole everything for the cause / I never had fingers as light as yours
River: I didn’t think you’d come for me.
Simon: Well, you’re a dummy.
04 Devics - My Beautiful Sinking Ship Is this the end, the top for me? No. Chin up, Stiff lip,
Gabriel Tam: This is a slippery slope, young man. You have no idea how far down you can go, and you're not taking us with you.
Simon: Meaning what?
Gabriel: I won't come for you again. You end up here, or get mixed-up in something worse, you're on your own. I will not come for you.
05 Radical Face - Wrapped in Piano Strings They cut your eyes wide open / And pour into your precious head / My reach don't go that far dear / But please oh please don't let them in
Zoe: Will she be alright?
Simon: I don't know if she'll be alright. I don't know what they did to her. Or why. I-I just need to keep her safe.
06 Coldplay - The Scientist Nobody said it was easy / It's such a shame for us to part / Nobody said it was easy / No one ever said it would be this hard
Simon: I don't know if I'll be able to help her here; and I need to help her.
Inara: Simon, you are. Leaving your whole world behind? That's incredibly selfless.
Simon: Yeah. I *selflessly* turned us both into wanted fugitives.
07 Regina Spektor - Somedays Some days aren't yours at all, / They come and go as if they are / someone else's days / They come and leave you behind / Some else's face / And it's harsher than yours
Mal: Doctor could be called a lot of things. Coward wouldn't be one of 'em, though.
Inara: You don't think they were arrested, do you?
Wash: Worse than that, probably. Looks like maybe they got snatched.
08 Alison Krauss - It Doesn’t Matter It doesn't matter what I want / It doesn't matter what I need / It doesn't matter if I cry / Don't matter if I bleed
Early: You ever been shot?
Simon: No.
Early: You oughta be shot. Or stabbed. Lose a leg. To be a surgeon, you know? Know what kind of pain you're dealing with. They make psychiatrists get psychoanalyzed before they can get certified, but they don't make a surgeon get cut on. That seem right to you?
09 Sarah McLachlan - Full of Grace I feel just like I'm sinking / And I claw for solid ground / I'm pulled down by the undertow / I never thought I could feel so low / Oh darkness I feel like letting go
River: We're lost... lost in the woods.
Simon: It's going to be okay. They'll find us. Once the Captain realizes what happened, they'll come.
[Serenity takes off. Simon looks stunned]
Stark: See there? No one's coming for you. You just keep moving.
10 Holly Cole - Make It Go Away This is not the way you should see me / This is not the face I recognize / Could I lay my head down here for a moment?
Zoe: This is really not my area of expertise, Doctor. I tend to be putting these into people, more than the other thing.
Wash: Can I mop your brow? I am at the ready with the fearsome brow-mop.
Simon: You got the bullet. [beat] Okaaay. I'm just gonna pass out for a minute, but you're doing great.
11 Tom McRae - Human Remains Those things that I've lost and things that I've sold / This case is now closed the trail has gone cold
Zoe: How'd you do it?
Simon: Money. And-and luck. For two years, I couldn't get near her.
12 Poe - Haunted One more look at the ghost / Before I’m gonna make it leave / Come here / I’ve got the pieces here / Time to gather up the splinters
Mal: My point is could've been you she might have shot just then. The doctor, as you just made note of. And who exactly could fix you? Not nobody. We're deep in space, corner of No and Where. You take extra care with her, 'cause we're very much alone out here.
13 Goo Goo Dolls - Iris And I don’t want the world to see me / Cause I don’t think that they’d understand / When everything’s made to be broken / I just want you to know who I am
Book: But she's doing better.
Simon: I've tried a couple different medications. She's sleeping better, but nothing really stable. I'll keep trying. Certainly got enough drugs on hand.
Book: Yes, I'd forgotten you're moonlighting as a criminal mastermind now. Got your next heist planned?
Simon: No. But I'm thinking about growing a big black mustache. I'm a traditionalist.
14 Muse - Butterflies and Hurricanes change everything you are / and everything you were
Regan Tam: Simon, this is paranoid. It's stress. If they heard you talking like this at the hospital, it could affect your entire future.
Simon: Who cares about my future?
Gabriel Tam: You should.
Regan: You're a surgeon in one of the best hospitals in Capital City. On your way to a major position, possibly even the Medical Elect. You're going to throw all of that away? Everything you've worked for your whole life?
15 Semisonic - FNT I'm surprised that you've never been told before / That you're priceless yeah, you're precious
Simon: My way of being polite or however it's... well, it's the only way I have of showing you that I like you. Of showing respect.
Kaylee: So, when we made love last night...
Simon: When we *what*?
Kaylee: [laughs] You really are such an easy mark.
16 Radical Face - Welcome Home, Son You were never supposed to leave. / Now my head's splitting at the seams. / And I don't know if I can...
Simon: I got a few letters at first, and then I didn't hear for months. Finally I got a letter that made no sense. She-she talked about things that never happened, jokes that-that we never... It was code. It just said... ”They're hurting us. Get me out."
Download at: Sendspace (77MB) - All song tracks (16) are MP3 files. Artwork included.