To whom this may concern,

After lying awake all last night, I had some time to think about everything.  I have come to the conclusion that I do run away everytime something good might happen or someone tries to get close to me, I've tried to deny it but there's no point.  I've also decided I need to stop, I don't know why I do it I just....do.  I ( Read more... )

well so i haven't updated in a very very long time.  so where should i start.  there is just so much to let go but nothing really good.  my mom has been veyr sick lately and the doctors aren't too sure of what's going on they did some tests and think if might be cancer but aren't too sure so they are doign a biopsy so make sure and then she needs ( Read more... )

Things have just gotten out of hand.  How selfish am I to actually want or wish for someone to actaulyl talk to, to be there for me, someone who will actually listen to me.  This has just become too much for me right now.  I'm sick of the pain and the marks it leaves behind.  These scars run much deeper than just the flesh that i am so helplessly ( Read more... )

Ewww....confusion!

Yea so today wasn't all half bad, I did absolutly nothing is every single class except watch movies and sleep or read my book, which I am very into by the way.  Then I got to leave early run home and then I had to go to court for my little thingy that I needed to get taken care of.  That wasn't all bad either they were vbery leinent and I got away ( Read more... )

Friday was actually not all bad.  I went to Holly's and we were supposed to go to the movies with Steph but then we walked over to Jer's for a bit waiting for her and we decided that it was more fun there so we called Steph and had her come over ther instead.  So yea we all hung out and shit and it was all pretty fun alot of people ended up coming ( Read more... )

( So Many Feelings Disregarded )

Ok well first of all I am sorry if people take any offense to it but I am sick of this shit and it's to the point where I just need to say something.

I am so sick of people and their pissy, bitchy ass moods all the time and act all fucking emo when the attention isn't on them all the god damn time.  I'm sick of people and their stupid fucking ( Read more... )

Don't you just love knowing and to be constantly reminded that you are never good enough?  Constatly trying to live up to the expectations of others and yourself.  It just seems like no matter how hard you try or how much you put into it someone is always there to remind that it's not good enough.

SO last night I went to the Pistions game.  It was really nice and we had a suite and stuff so that was fun.  It was over all a pretty good game.  Well they lost which kinda sucks but anyway so yea my dad a couldn't remember where he parked the car so yea we looked for that for like 30 min then we got home around 1.  Then I had to get up for school ( Read more... )