I am very disappointed in the chain of events surrounding Saturday night, what started as a miscommunication may be potentially severing friendships. I've been trying to express my point of view and apparently that's not ok, even though others have had the opportunity. I've been told to fuck off, called a liar and immoral repeatedly and without any provocation and reason. I'm taking responsibility for my part, I should have decided earlier and been more clear about my situation and the details, but did that warrant this slander and hatred? What accountability is being taken on the other side, did they have no part in this? What I don't understand is how Tammy and Robert have specifically made an agreement with me to always talk issues out as they come and be honest, and yet Robert has bombarded me with a ton of accusations that I'm a bad person ("stupid fucking bitch" to be exact) and how he's given me a ton of chances I was never aware of. If there was really all these unresolved issues and tension, why is it just surfacing now, and where was it last month at his birthday when he proclaimed how close he feels to me and how our friendship has so much potential? Where is Tammy in all of this, because the issues at hand were really with her and not him... He's way on the defense on her behalf and spouting many assumptions that are completely false. Why they think it's impossible that I'm happy for them, and not jealous of them or they're friendship is perplexing... I care about them, so of course I support whatever makes them happy, isn't that what a friend should do? I've done nothing to show otherwise and yet it's a constant mantra from Robert, maybe because he himself has trouble being happy for anyone else. I have never lied or betrayed either of them, I said no to one night of bowling because of priorities and now I'm the devil.
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