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weird ass things are goingon in my life. BAH im graduating. its getting to me. i have senioritis. i dont want people to leave this summer. its going to come so fast. july. people are leaving in july. and imleaving not long after. I cantwait to getout of here and start my new life but i so scared we're not going to make these next few months count. I am going to. but i have so many different groups of friends, i feel like sumtimes i spread myself too thin amongst people.
One week from not ill be at my college, checkingout the campus, meeting new people and making my final decision. Ill bewith my best friend of... 9 or so years now, and hopefully a boy that in my eyes is the counter version of myself. Im excited to see both of them. Tabby and i are going to crazy, i know it lol. Have u ever just wanted to see sumones face? u know the feelings arent the same but.. u just miss their presence? I cant wait.
IVe spent the last few nights being semi-emo and semi-lonely.i am so manic right now. sleeping is difficult and i cant stop moving. i havebeen running like crazy just to tire my body out. i love this feelingbut i know itsnot healthy. i cant help it. However at night i start to think about things and miss having sumone to cuddle with. But theni rememeber i have like 3 interests right now and it wouldbe entirely untruthful of me to connect with one person and pretend its all i want. Not to mention Im leaving and cannot wait to get away from everything here. Tho ihave a feeling just before i leave i amgoing to fall.
In the last two years i have fallen in love in may/june. I findone of those people u click with like crazy and i fall hard, in like a weeks time. Then i spend all ofwinter getting over it. I canfeel it im gonna fall again. i dunno for who, but it could hurt. imgoing to probably tear myself apart over it too.. because its the last thing i want. but i cant help it. andi love the feelings that u cant help having, so raw and immediate. So passionate.
maybeill just stay away fromthe opposite sex alltogether. lol too bad all my friends are boys. with the acception of ashley now lol. who by the way helps me sort all this out. which is pretty great. i missed that.
p.s. he talks to me like imworth it.
One week from not ill be at my college, checkingout the campus, meeting new people and making my final decision. Ill bewith my best friend of... 9 or so years now, and hopefully a boy that in my eyes is the counter version of myself. Im excited to see both of them. Tabby and i are going to crazy, i know it lol. Have u ever just wanted to see sumones face? u know the feelings arent the same but.. u just miss their presence? I cant wait.
IVe spent the last few nights being semi-emo and semi-lonely.i am so manic right now. sleeping is difficult and i cant stop moving. i havebeen running like crazy just to tire my body out. i love this feelingbut i know itsnot healthy. i cant help it. However at night i start to think about things and miss having sumone to cuddle with. But theni rememeber i have like 3 interests right now and it wouldbe entirely untruthful of me to connect with one person and pretend its all i want. Not to mention Im leaving and cannot wait to get away from everything here. Tho ihave a feeling just before i leave i amgoing to fall.
In the last two years i have fallen in love in may/june. I findone of those people u click with like crazy and i fall hard, in like a weeks time. Then i spend all ofwinter getting over it. I canfeel it im gonna fall again. i dunno for who, but it could hurt. imgoing to probably tear myself apart over it too.. because its the last thing i want. but i cant help it. andi love the feelings that u cant help having, so raw and immediate. So passionate.
maybeill just stay away fromthe opposite sex alltogether. lol too bad all my friends are boys. with the acception of ashley now lol. who by the way helps me sort all this out. which is pretty great. i missed that.
p.s. he talks to me like imworth it.