HOly crap. I said that I am my own worse enemy to my therapist. He told me the fact that I can recognize self-sabotage was a step in the right direction.
Bullet in the chamber
anonymous
October 20 2003, 20:27:53 UTC
....and I remember waaayyy back in 1988 when you told me that MY life was a lot like a Loverboy album... and in particular, that song... tisk tisk tisk.... well matey, my ducks may not be entirely lined up but I'm not exactly wandering around BrickTown aimlessly either :) C'mom sucker... give us some more juice !!! --- Joe
Apologies for commenting so late after you posted the original entry, but from what I can read this does have some relevance to your post in the childfree community.
First off, I joined because I am not sure if I ever want to have children. It could be a health nightmare if I tried to have one naturally, that I know for sure, and besides I have never felt particularly warm towards them. That's not to say that I dislike them; I'd just rather converse with teenagers and older. Like many who seek out membership in that community, it is a "safe haven" in which to rant about ill-behaved children, or most likely, ill-behaved parents who really need to keep their young'uns on leashes. A lot of the posts bum me out, I'll admit it, but every now and again one will come along that has a true issue more than a complaint or a rant, or invites positive discussion about the childfree lifestyle.
That said, I am totally appalled at the behavior of some of the posters in the thread that you started. I felt you were doing your best to explain your
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Oh, just one more thought--if you post anything else here in your journal about this issue, even if it's a vague point, you may want to lock the entry. I don't think you'd want trolls snooping around here.
Firstly, thanks for your words of support; and don't take my friend joe's comments (anonymous, below) to heart, he's a bit abrasive but I like him that way and he means well to spite how he may sound.
On the topic of the CF post, I have a pretty thick skin and thanks to my advanced age (HA!) I have been on and around the 'net since it was young, as a result, I can flame with the best of 'em and still not get burned. The only reason I didn't cut into some of the trolls on that post was that I really was trying to get some insight and information and I didn't want the entire thread to degrade into a flame war. It might have been entertaining, but it would have been counterproductive to my goals so I pretty much let that shit slide.
bah, this shit sucks. I HATE feeling this way, I want to know where I stand again and where I fit in. perhaps I -should- follow good 'ole joe's 10 steps to happiness but it seems like I would be just giving up if I did so...
Dude, what happend to you? Are you so self centered to think that the cause of all your misery are necessarily the things you are obsessing over? You are about as messed up as one person can get and still function day to day. You need counseling, medication...and lots of it... what the hell are you doing with yourself spending all this time on-line with these freakin' net goons ?!? The drama will end and when you grow back your testicles and end it... not before... if you don't want help then please refer to my 10 point plan for you.... and knock it off with these (well meaning) but warped mother fuckers
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Yes, I DO know more than you... and I can tell you this, you have a loonnggg way to go and your problems are many. You can't solve them all and you may have to leave what was your life behind....that's just how life gets... do you really think I wanted to go through everything I have already...? but I agree with the other anonymous poster here... you are (at the very least) clinically depressed dude... you were before the baby... you were while you were here in California... and (despite all you've done to try to be better) you STILL are now... you will not be able to save your marriage no matter what you do... unless you treat your depression... of course if you just follow the 10 point plan, the depression may alleviate on its own but will still take quite a while. Bottom line (and this is no shit) IF you WANT to work things out and stay in your marriage... you NEED TO GET COUNSELING AND SOON... otherwise your marriage will eventually slip away from you regardless of your indecisiveness
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please get counseling ASAP
anonymous
October 23 2003, 20:06:28 UTC
You sound like you may be clinically depressed. Get your head straightened out before you make life-changing decisions about your wife and son. Good luck.
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So...YOU GO BOYFRIEND.
*internet high-five*
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good to know I'm at least getting something right, even if it is self-depreciating!
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First off, I joined because I am not sure if I ever want to have children. It could be a health nightmare if I tried to have one naturally, that I know for sure, and besides I have never felt particularly warm towards them. That's not to say that I dislike them; I'd just rather converse with teenagers and older. Like many who seek out membership in that community, it is a "safe haven" in which to rant about ill-behaved children, or most likely, ill-behaved parents who really need to keep their young'uns on leashes. A lot of the posts bum me out, I'll admit it, but every now and again one will come along that has a true issue more than a complaint or a rant, or invites positive discussion about the childfree lifestyle.
That said, I am totally appalled at the behavior of some of the posters in the thread that you started. I felt you were doing your best to explain your ( ... )
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On the topic of the CF post, I have a pretty thick skin and thanks to my advanced age (HA!) I have been on and around the 'net since it was young, as a result, I can flame with the best of 'em and still not get burned. The only reason I didn't cut into some of the trolls on that post was that I really was trying to get some insight and information and I didn't want the entire thread to degrade into a flame war. It might have been entertaining, but it would have been counterproductive to my goals so I pretty much let that shit slide.
bah, this shit sucks. I HATE feeling this way, I want to know where I stand again and where I fit in. perhaps I -should- follow good 'ole joe's 10 steps to happiness but it seems like I would be just giving up if I did so...
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Are you implying that somehow it isn't? If so, perhaps you have more insight into this situation than I do.
Send me a plane ticket dude, I'm there.....
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