Excited, semi-breathless feeling
So, i'm probably getting myself worked up over nothing. Most likely, she wont even bet there.
I'm going to a party tonight. It's a costume party, for an aquaintance's birthday. I went to highschool with the guy, and worked with him for a while at Xpect Discounts. What's got me all excited is the fact that one of HIS friends might be there. Her name is Deana, but we all used to call her Dee. I had a MAJOR crush on this girl at one time. I'm talking 3 years of highschool, and most of my first 2 years of college. I still wish i'd had the courage to ask her out, but every time i got close to taking the plunge, she'd have a new boyfriend, and i'd be left cursing myself for being a coward. Caitlin made me forget about her for a while, cuz well, a crush is nothing compared to actually experiancing love.
But...as part of my latest push to get over Caitlin and move on with my life, i've been trying to think of new girls i'd maybe want to date. and my thoughts would come back every now and then to Dee. The problem is, i have absolutely no way to contact her. I was never good enough friends with her to have her phone number, dont have her AIM or Livejournal or Myspace. Facebook was an option at one point, but the last time i tried to check, her profile no longer existed. So now this party is coming up, and I'm wondering if she'll be there. Like i said, probably not. But i'm still having trouble keeping myself from getting excited.
I'm going to a party tonight. It's a costume party, for an aquaintance's birthday. I went to highschool with the guy, and worked with him for a while at Xpect Discounts. What's got me all excited is the fact that one of HIS friends might be there. Her name is Deana, but we all used to call her Dee. I had a MAJOR crush on this girl at one time. I'm talking 3 years of highschool, and most of my first 2 years of college. I still wish i'd had the courage to ask her out, but every time i got close to taking the plunge, she'd have a new boyfriend, and i'd be left cursing myself for being a coward. Caitlin made me forget about her for a while, cuz well, a crush is nothing compared to actually experiancing love.
But...as part of my latest push to get over Caitlin and move on with my life, i've been trying to think of new girls i'd maybe want to date. and my thoughts would come back every now and then to Dee. The problem is, i have absolutely no way to contact her. I was never good enough friends with her to have her phone number, dont have her AIM or Livejournal or Myspace. Facebook was an option at one point, but the last time i tried to check, her profile no longer existed. So now this party is coming up, and I'm wondering if she'll be there. Like i said, probably not. But i'm still having trouble keeping myself from getting excited.