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another weekend gone and everything turned out pretty well. im really glad that we have been going out so much, it has made the rest of the week not seem so bad. it gives me something to look forward to. its a little sad that by tuesday im usually wishing it was friday so that i can go out, but hey everyone needs something to look forward to. haha. the pictures from this weekend were awesome, everyone looks happy, especially the old guy who was out partying at 3AM.
today is going to be a very rough day. i agreed to pick james up from the airport, which is fine, except that he has no idea whats coming. i really feel confident in being ready to talk to him and let him know how i feel. there is no reason i should have to feel discouraged or depressed everytime i talk to or think about someone who is supposed to be my best friend. he made a choice in telling me stuff, but its something that is damaging and really has made me feel like shit. its going to take a lot of time for me to recover from that. i might not show it, but when i was out on friday everytime some guy looked at me, my immediate thought was that i was too fat or something stupid. and i know that im not, but thanks to james telling me that, especially since its the reason he wont date me, i just have this stupid attitude that nobody is ever going to date me for that same reason. and i know that bullshit, but for now that is my thinking because of what he said, which is why i know that i have to get him out of my life for now. its going to be hard, but im hoping that with enough distraction from school work and my friends ill be able to make it through it. (hint hint friends):-P
speaking of school distractions i must go write a paper with excessive banging coming from upstairs in my apt.
today is going to be a very rough day. i agreed to pick james up from the airport, which is fine, except that he has no idea whats coming. i really feel confident in being ready to talk to him and let him know how i feel. there is no reason i should have to feel discouraged or depressed everytime i talk to or think about someone who is supposed to be my best friend. he made a choice in telling me stuff, but its something that is damaging and really has made me feel like shit. its going to take a lot of time for me to recover from that. i might not show it, but when i was out on friday everytime some guy looked at me, my immediate thought was that i was too fat or something stupid. and i know that im not, but thanks to james telling me that, especially since its the reason he wont date me, i just have this stupid attitude that nobody is ever going to date me for that same reason. and i know that bullshit, but for now that is my thinking because of what he said, which is why i know that i have to get him out of my life for now. its going to be hard, but im hoping that with enough distraction from school work and my friends ill be able to make it through it. (hint hint friends):-P
speaking of school distractions i must go write a paper with excessive banging coming from upstairs in my apt.