I said I would write more of the day when everything calmed down and then it never happend. :p So here goes, a blow by blow memory of that day. I'll put it behind a cut becuase I figure it's going to get a bit long.

The weekend had been totally crazy. My oldest brother, Roy,  had gotten in late on the 4th and then everyone came over to our house ( Read more... )

I was on anyway getting stuff from my parents house so I want to write this while it's still fresh in my mind ( Read more... )

It can be hard for someone who leads a fairly normal, fear free life, to understand those of us who have certain paranoid tendancies and who see fear and darkness in the most sensible things. I've heard of fears of ninjas, fears of strangers in your home, fears of people driving on your street and fears of things being on your roof. For me.. while ( Read more... )

 She was a quiet soul. Often a scared soul. One who prefered to blend in to the background, who spent most of the time alone with her thoughts and her little games. She made up friends for herself becuase they were truer than any real person could be. She avoided letting people close enough to her that they could hurt her, too many already had. ( Read more... )

Wow, my luck doesn't usually run like this. By 430 tonight I will have the check from that sweepstakes, $8600 before taxes. My 2YN's are both going so well that I'm going to buy the 2YN book and give into working ahead. And I think we just got our first job offer for the business. We have to go look at the place and give a more detailed bid tonight ( Read more... )

  This morning was the third Monday in a row where I had to drive my beloved to work knowing that that would be the last time I would see him for that week.  While I am handling it far better than I did the first week he was gone, I'm just tired of it. When he first took this assignment it was supposed to be for a week. Now it's starting to feel as ( Read more... )

Just a note to say that life is good. He got home at 7pm last night. We had some good times together, had a serious conversation about us this morning that basically boiled down to, if I wasn't happy I wouldn't still be here and no other girl is worth the drama so just chill out :-p. I think all is good and am going to try to do just that. Happy ( Read more... )

Well, I did as asked and reread my post this morning and yes, it did help. And I am very proud of myself for last night even though a couple things this morning reminded me that I can not change over night.

Yesterday afternoon was great. Not only did I talk to him on the way home and it was more comfortable and fun than any of our other phone ( Read more... )

 Okay, this post is more for me than for anyone else but you can read it if you want. I'm not even going to try and edit it or phrase it properly so it might be a mess. And it'll probably get kind of long, as most of my posts do, so it'll all be behind a cut.

I realized I have been wallowing a lot lately and that doesn't help my self esteem problems ( Read more... )

This rollercoaster ride with my emotions is about to put me over the edge. Yes I'm handling him being gone a lot better this week but that doesn't mean I want this to continue on for a month. He says the job is so messed up that it might take them as long as three more weeks to be done. Though he also says that once they get the walls done they ( Read more... )