I really miss Ron an awful lot still from time to time. The good times were really good. In hindsight I can forget the pained annoyance, how bitter he could be to me and how much I would hurt him for no good reason. I hope my insanity doesn't poison all my relationships. I hope his insanity doesn't poison all of his. I sure d(o)id love him.

I just had the most awesome dream. I woke from my nap to find that I had two identical copies of my laptop, and I went into the living room to show philip, who was fixing a tear in the couch, and ming, who was cooking in the kitchen. I couldn't think of how I could get two copies of my laptop, except some sort of time paradox. At first they didn't ( Read more... )

I could have made a friend today. It's the second time I've seen my Blue Bottle barista twice on a wednessday, once ordering my coffe, and then again on my way home. this time he was going into the convience store on my corner and looked ginuinly pleased to see me and said Hi. I'm exhausted though and didn't stop to say anythign other than "hey!", ( Read more... )

I do things to hurt myself on purpose

I have made a new userpic. May it usher in a new era of freedom and prosparity.

a cool essay Philip found

http://www.commondreams.org/views04/0312-08.htm

http://codetoad.livejournal.com/250669.html

It's true we've worked a miracle.

I read an artical in the new yorker the other day in my therapist's office about a disorder called Leynach-nehan sysndrome, Totaly misspelled, which is this hard core genetic mutation of an enzime that breaks down leftoever nucliotides so they can be recycled into dna, but apparently when this breaks it causes a variety of fucking awesome and ( Read more... )

http://www.archives.gov/national-archives-experience/charters/declaration_transcript.html

issue one:danae is an intolerable shrew. I think that she thinks the way to win me over is to hover over me and snipe at me with her constant insessant wineing about every trivial complaint she has, she'll follow me around a room and throw constnat talking points at me about how every aspect of her life is stupid and everyone isn't good enough for ( Read more... )