update 2
i thought i should also include all the other thoughts in my head like i feel completly usuless and ugly how the two most important people in my life or they were i feel hate me and dont even want to see me, how i fear that im loosing a fire inside of me how i feel like im annoying eveyone and im fucking it all up the ass, im sorry this is not my normal writting style but im missing alot of me latley im missing alot of people lately which i weird cause ayear ago ive never missed anyone before and here i am missing people