new project
Starting a new project - I feel like I need something to jumpstart my life right now. I feel depressed frequently - it might be the November Brown and darkness and coming of winter or it may be something deeper. My overeating has been worse and I feel terrible when I overeat. It affects me in so many bad ways. Sweets and excess calories are not good for my body. I definitely have "the glass half-empty rather than half-full syndrome" going on in my mind. Self pity that I don't get out much (though I do get out - it is my mind that tells me I don't...) and depression from being with mom in her sad state. Anyway, yesterday I got the idea to make a diary type book of art for the coming year, starting now. If I can just do a little bit of art each day I know it will brighten my day. So this book is a "have to do" project - something to be committed to. It doesn't matter how much I do in the book each day but I have to do SOMEthing each day, even if I only do a scribble that will be enough. And if I do a scribble I may do more. I spent the afternoon yesterday making the book and sewing it and then dating each page, starting at 11-27-09 and going till 11-28-10 of next year. A page for each day. As I was dating the pages I was thinking about the coming year and how I eat. Could I also eat well for one year, for all these 365 days? It is a finite number, it is a contained number. Could I eat in a way that would be loving to myself, and take care of myself for one year? I'm going to give it a try. I may post pages as I finish them here on LJ in the coming year. It will be called, "A Year of Art" - AYOA.
