saturday
There is non-perfection in the world. Bites are taken out of things, things get old and decay, debris accumulates, things stretch and don't return to their old places. To live we have to eat and to eat we have to consume things that live. How to reconcile the perfection of creation with the reality of the world? "The Only Constant in Life Is Change."
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I'm thinking I'm detecting some very small changes in myself after getting off that aromatase inhibitor pill. It's been a week now. Nothing's dramatically better like I hoped it would be. But of course it didn't get dramatically worse back when I started it 5 years ago. I'm not having less hot flashes now (that was something I hoped for) but I do (seem to) have a lighter view of the world. I kinder view. I'm remembering my dreams from the night before better. The dreams seem to be brighter. More colorful. More involved. I'm feeling a bit more patient with myself and with others. Maybe having more estrogen in my system now is bringing out my creative feminine side more. More right side of the brain type stuff. That would be great.
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Saturday - my usual day to try and get a walk in the cemetery before the meeting. Need to leave soon.
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I'm thinking I'm detecting some very small changes in myself after getting off that aromatase inhibitor pill. It's been a week now. Nothing's dramatically better like I hoped it would be. But of course it didn't get dramatically worse back when I started it 5 years ago. I'm not having less hot flashes now (that was something I hoped for) but I do (seem to) have a lighter view of the world. I kinder view. I'm remembering my dreams from the night before better. The dreams seem to be brighter. More colorful. More involved. I'm feeling a bit more patient with myself and with others. Maybe having more estrogen in my system now is bringing out my creative feminine side more. More right side of the brain type stuff. That would be great.
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Saturday - my usual day to try and get a walk in the cemetery before the meeting. Need to leave soon.