holiday gloom
Got into a funk yesterday - though I don't think it showed to others (hope not) but the holiday gloom has started. Thoughts of not making good enough foods, not having my house nice enough, not giving good enough presents, just not being good enough. Though today I made a bit of headway with some ideas for presents I can make for people that they might find useful. I feel a little more hopeful now. If I keep busy making these things it will take my mind off ME (and my failings) till Christmas. I have no idea what to give a lot of the young people on my list. Money I guess will be the thing. And this thing I'm going to make. It'll work for all ages.
It probably doesn't help that deer hunting season starts tomorrow. This is when Dave is gone from long before dawn to way after dark. All evening after he gets home he is talking to his hunting buddies on the phone - they are describing every moment of their day to each other. Then he falls into bed exhausted. I start to feel lonely. They call us "hunting widows".
I still haven't taken David Z and Halley to the vet yet. Now it is rescheduled for Monday.
I don't want to be a complete downer. I need to think of good things - what I am grateful for in life right now.
1. Glad that I thought of a gift I can make everyone on my list. That makes me happy.
2. Glad that I have music to listen to. I love having music playing in the background. Yesterday when I was working in the kitchen it made things better. A little reggae to keep things moving.
3. I got turned onto powdered peanut butter - all the taste and protein and very few calories. Planning to make a banana smoothie with it for lunch today. I've never been a smoothie lover but we will see...
4. Birds outside my window. A little flock of sparrows just flew in for the feeder. Busy.
5. This morning I found an extension for the boot dryer I bought Dave. It was not tall enough for his high boots and he wanted me to return it. I didn't want to return it so I'm glad I found an extension.
Five is enough...
You'll find me in my room making metal objects with music playing in the background.
It probably doesn't help that deer hunting season starts tomorrow. This is when Dave is gone from long before dawn to way after dark. All evening after he gets home he is talking to his hunting buddies on the phone - they are describing every moment of their day to each other. Then he falls into bed exhausted. I start to feel lonely. They call us "hunting widows".
I still haven't taken David Z and Halley to the vet yet. Now it is rescheduled for Monday.
I don't want to be a complete downer. I need to think of good things - what I am grateful for in life right now.
1. Glad that I thought of a gift I can make everyone on my list. That makes me happy.
2. Glad that I have music to listen to. I love having music playing in the background. Yesterday when I was working in the kitchen it made things better. A little reggae to keep things moving.
3. I got turned onto powdered peanut butter - all the taste and protein and very few calories. Planning to make a banana smoothie with it for lunch today. I've never been a smoothie lover but we will see...
4. Birds outside my window. A little flock of sparrows just flew in for the feeder. Busy.
5. This morning I found an extension for the boot dryer I bought Dave. It was not tall enough for his high boots and he wanted me to return it. I didn't want to return it so I'm glad I found an extension.
Five is enough...
You'll find me in my room making metal objects with music playing in the background.