thinking
I haven't thought about "My Future Perfect World" for a while. Maybe that is a sign of being depressed (or whatever I have been being) - not having a future to look forward to. I used to think a lot about MFPW when I was taking care of my mom. And after she passed I lived my MFPW when I got into hiking and biking every week with friends. Moving back into this house and having a real studio was a part of MFPW too. Then I got into a rut. Bogged down. Dealing with cancer didn't help. And the political situation is a blanket of doom and anger over everything. Anyway I feel a bit revived, maybe it is the thyroid med, or maybe I just got sick of being sick and tired. Getting down to the basement and starting the mosaic again and working on the silver watch bracelet has made me feel better about just life in general. I don't think I'm "stuck" anymore.
I was thinking about my MFPW again this morning:
If I did continue with making some jewelry it would only be what I want to do. Something to express my world and my life. I love landscapes (and being in the landscape) and the best way to do landscapes in jewelry, I'm thinking, would be to do enamels and make them into pendants. The above picture is my enameling table right now. Covered with crap. Look at the beautiful golden light in the tree outside my window. I call that tree The Entity Outside My Window. It's always out there looking in at me. It wouldn't take me very long to clear off that table and clean it so I could work there again. Enameling is a "clean" art - can't have any dust or dirt around to get into the enamels. And if I woke up my etsy store that might be a good thing - making some money is a good thing. Right now I'm actually losing money with the etsy store. Tiny amounts of money but still. I may as well close it if I'm not going to take care of it and add things to it. I really don't think I am ready to close it yet.
In MFPW I am looking forward to the new phase of the year, the next season (autumn and winter) when I get back to hiking with friends. Biking is over now - too cold. I have been checking out maps of Oil Creek State Park and there are so many trails I haven't been on. That is exciting to me - planning hikes.
Also in MFPW I'm going to pick up crochet again. I got about a 1/5 of the elements I need for a big fancy blanket and then I quit for the summer and it just sits there. Instead of reading on my ipad (mostly political stuff that makes me outraged!) in the evening I want to crochet while Dave and I watch TV.
And lastly, in MFPW I want to do something about my body so I can feel more comfortable in it. Lose weight, get stronger all over. Yes, I can walk and I can bike - I have those muscles but that is about it. Stretching exercises would be good.