Escape
Even though I know it's futile to wonder, because I'm never right, I wonder if mania is creeping up on me. I feel so full of LIFE, so full of... well... everything! I had a hard time sitting still at work today because I just wanted to be up, be doing, be moving.
I am embracing this mania, if this is what it is, because my life has been melancholy and cobwebs and caution for so long that I'm sitting here crying at all the missed opportunities and trying to find the new ones.
I am afraid of this mania, if this is what it is, because my relationship with my boyfriend is stagnant, is not going anywhere, is so lacking in this passion that I feel for everything else...
I just want to shove everyone else away, and go out, and be me, and do what I want, and experience this world I'm living in and stop taking these silly excuses as the reason I can't be happy i don't have money i can't leave work my family needs me i have a boyfriend who loves me
My mind is far more cogent than this, really, I just needed to type this out, to put it out in the world.
Mania or no, I am loving this resurgence in passion for life. I have so dearly missed it.
I am embracing this mania, if this is what it is, because my life has been melancholy and cobwebs and caution for so long that I'm sitting here crying at all the missed opportunities and trying to find the new ones.
I am afraid of this mania, if this is what it is, because my relationship with my boyfriend is stagnant, is not going anywhere, is so lacking in this passion that I feel for everything else...
I just want to shove everyone else away, and go out, and be me, and do what I want, and experience this world I'm living in and stop taking these silly excuses as the reason I can't be happy i don't have money i can't leave work my family needs me i have a boyfriend who loves me
My mind is far more cogent than this, really, I just needed to type this out, to put it out in the world.
Mania or no, I am loving this resurgence in passion for life. I have so dearly missed it.