With a sharp eye to sunrise
I have been vacillating between raged and hyperactive. I won't try to put a mood judgment on anything -- I'm usually wrong anyway -- but I've been noticing the trend. It is making a few things difficult, but it's clearing up a lot of problems that had started simply because there wasn't any grease on the wheels.
My boyfriend was fired at the end of February. Both of us were expecting it to happen at some point; we had, in fact, been talking about him finding a new job since, oh, November or so. He sort of half-heartedly did it. It was very, very hard for me not to say "I told you so!" when he was fired and had 0 prospects (and I did actually say it just a little bit). It took him until now, but he leveraged a social contact into a temporary thing. He makes just about half as much as he did at his previous job, but it's the sort of work that will give him the freedom to look for something much better without having to worry about not being able to make rent or the bills.
Me, personally, I have been delightedly soaking in the beautiful weather. It's been in the mid-70s, and bright and sunny, for the past couple weeks. It has done fantastic things to my mood. I've felt so inspired and so energetic! It is a great change from my frustration and internally-driven rage. I want to get back to doing things, whatever they may be, and the weather really helps me turn motivation and desire from whiny self-indulgent "I wish" to thoughtful, driven progress toward accomplishment.
My brother is moving in with me next Wednesday. My parents are having a really tough time with money and my dad's job prospects have been so slim that they have to move from their beautiful little rental on the island in the forest to an extended stay hotel. Given that the space is little more than a large hotel room, and my mother, my father, the border collie and the kitty all need to live there, they figured my brother would be better of staying with me until they get back on their feet. There are other benefits to this, too, and they're mainly for my brother.... Ah, my brother. I will probably write another entry about him in the coming week to explain what's going on here.
Suffice to say that my 750 sq ft apartment is about to get a LOT smaller.
I am feeling pretty content lately. I am motivated to do things, and feeling motivated to actually move on them. I like feeling motivated! I've missed this. I am planning to take full advantage of this while it lasts.
Now just to keep my overreactions down...
My boyfriend was fired at the end of February. Both of us were expecting it to happen at some point; we had, in fact, been talking about him finding a new job since, oh, November or so. He sort of half-heartedly did it. It was very, very hard for me not to say "I told you so!" when he was fired and had 0 prospects (and I did actually say it just a little bit). It took him until now, but he leveraged a social contact into a temporary thing. He makes just about half as much as he did at his previous job, but it's the sort of work that will give him the freedom to look for something much better without having to worry about not being able to make rent or the bills.
Me, personally, I have been delightedly soaking in the beautiful weather. It's been in the mid-70s, and bright and sunny, for the past couple weeks. It has done fantastic things to my mood. I've felt so inspired and so energetic! It is a great change from my frustration and internally-driven rage. I want to get back to doing things, whatever they may be, and the weather really helps me turn motivation and desire from whiny self-indulgent "I wish" to thoughtful, driven progress toward accomplishment.
My brother is moving in with me next Wednesday. My parents are having a really tough time with money and my dad's job prospects have been so slim that they have to move from their beautiful little rental on the island in the forest to an extended stay hotel. Given that the space is little more than a large hotel room, and my mother, my father, the border collie and the kitty all need to live there, they figured my brother would be better of staying with me until they get back on their feet. There are other benefits to this, too, and they're mainly for my brother.... Ah, my brother. I will probably write another entry about him in the coming week to explain what's going on here.
Suffice to say that my 750 sq ft apartment is about to get a LOT smaller.
I am feeling pretty content lately. I am motivated to do things, and feeling motivated to actually move on them. I like feeling motivated! I've missed this. I am planning to take full advantage of this while it lasts.
Now just to keep my overreactions down...