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[ech0s0fdawn]

sooooooooo....umm yeah. matt got the air let out of his tires lastnight....odd how we were all gathered at his house talkin about how we wanted to do that....and it happens over night? I guess this is the 2nd time its happened this week. believe me....it wasn't me or heidi. i won't ever touch anybodys shit...no matter how much they piss me off or how much i hate them...if i have beef with someone, i'll do something ta them, fer sure, but not to their shit....anyways...hes saying it was us. fuck that stupid pussy. i saw him riding his bike today lol. fuckin fag. anyways...today was my first day of not smoking pot. wasn't so bad. sort out an out of place day, but thats everyday for me i guess. travis came to town....gotta $200 fine on the way too. i hope that teaches him a lesson, and how NOT to speed. I feel bad tho....4 points off his license n a $200 fine he can't aford right now. argh. he bought me smokes too. he was a sweetie tonight.he bought heidi hers too. heidi hadda babysit at 9...so i hung out with travis...yah..."i" hung out with travis by myself lol. thought it was going to be wierd...but hesa talker. I didn't feel that uncomfortable...we just cruised around and he was talking to me about he is gonna get a pet goat and chicken lol. hes wierd like that. He started asking me about tim and shit, and i was explaining to him sum stuf and he was actually nice about it. his wife was in jail for 4 months and he was telling me how hard it was going without her that long n shyt. first time he didn't have something smart to say about him....but i think thats just him...always hasta have somn to say with ppl around, but if no ones around....quite different. i was happy tho. he was nice and not all up on me this time. he begged for a hug tho, so i gave him a pat on the back. he asked for a hug at a stop sign...an i was like um no, theres ppl around! lol. i think i hurt his feelings...but i hope he knows i was just playing. hes gonna call me tomorrow. hopefully he dun work so goddamn late cuz im sick of just driving around or watchin a movie cuz he dun get home til 9 er 10. i wanna go play pool er go do somn. wish he'd have a day off. we hung out with him n john lastnight. i thought fer sure travis was going to kill us. but i hope he tames himself down with driving now.
i stopped by heidi for a while...told her about travis, and how fucking allen is 24!!! thats mind blowing. he looks 18....i dunno whatever lol.
i miss tim. sometimes i feel like hes just ignoring me or doesn't really care if he talks to me or not. alkjdf al;kdjf avn. makes me sad. if i lose him, i lose him huh? i hate that bullshit. i don't want to lose him. i don't know what he thinks of me anymore...or how he feels. i dunno. he said he was going to call me lastnight but he didn't. i just wish he'd actually be online when i was on, and didn't have to leave me right away.
ok im sad now. ergh. so wierd....i feel tired...not just beat...but like normal actual tired. i haven't felt that in years lol. it feels odd. anyways....im talking to timothy...cereal! he wants me to go hang out with him...i told him my ohio plans are kidna stuck at the moment...with the whole money situation...dunno how much im geting yet. but i told him definately summer or fall....i just hope i get to see/be with tim before all that.
ok well im goin to go to bed now cuz i doubt tims gonna get on his i see his mums on.
night