Kissed me even though I have a cold
Urgh. I hab a cold; my dose is like Niagra. And I have Choral Singing in an hour, awesome. It's tipping down with rain and I wish we didn't have Classical Text later. Such a frustrating class- no, Shakespeare didn't write that cause of the plosive letters & so the reader is filled with a sense of rage and betrayal, he wrote it cause it RHYMED.
Spring Awakening work is hard but fun; my characters are messed up but that work structure of "do it again" "do it again", and working through a scene until you get it right. We spent an hour and a half on a page of script. But that's far more satisfying than anything else we've been doing.
SO excited- I've found a production of The Seagull in London in August. I would kill to play Nina, especially since the alternative is a group that Alex is v familiar with and who have treated him like shit before (and me too a little) It’d be Midsummer Night’s Dream, which is a dodgy play anyway. I’d love to do a Shakespeare but Chekhov would be AMAZING. Even able to do the audition dates no problem.
Had awesome week with Man; we only get one day for our half term so I got to stay an extra day but then he came up to London as a surprise mid-week and I got to keep him till Sunday. Was feeling low because I felt like I wasn’t making him happy (such an old thing now for me) We saw a badly acted play (Ghosts on the West End) & a bad film (The Spy Who Came in from The Cold) which put him a bad mood. I felt like the most useless flaming girlfriend and went off for a walk in the rain to have a think. When I came back, he kissed me and held onto me and everything was happy & wonderful again. He’s ridiculously good at stuff like that.
Think it’s like we’ve fallen deeper in love. Or something like that. Since he told me on Valentine’s that he’s never felt like this about anyone before, it's like we're even better friends and lovers. He keeps telling me, “You don’t know how happy you make me.” It’s just so hard to believe that the guy I still have a crush on, that I adore, wants to be with me. Loves me. Told him he might be worried if he saw what was in my head: “It’s basically you surrounded by fairy lights.”
Late night text from me to him: My favourite man- thank you for lovely week. Have a quote from the box before you leave tomorrow- they’re all true. Love & adore you sunshine xxx
Him to me: My favourite girl- I shall do just that! Thank you for a lovely week J Love and adore you too… Sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx