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ow.
i should've known it was gonna be crappy weather today when my fingers started swelling up last night.
i hurt. not getting run over by a train hurt, or being hit by a tractor trailer hurt, more like being nailed by a car going 30mph hurt. i dislike days like this. especially since my dose went down yesterday, cuz theres withdrawal pain to and all the shit that goes along with it like panic attacks, cold sweats, and inability to sit still. not to mention the migraines. thats probably the worse part. feels like someones trying to push my eyes out of their sockets....ew, that's not a pleasant thought!
still having the best week ever! saw bob last night and it kicked ass, he's very different from the way he used to be, much more fun to hang out with, i very much enjoyed his company, and the attention. hes always been affectionate with me. the odd part is that this was the first guy ive actually gotten it from without being totally sickened, disgusted, and angered. since chris and i broke up i havent been too much for things like that, aside from michael (and its cuz he has a gf and it wont go anywhere), but it made me really happy. as soon as i walked in i mustve hugged him for 5 minutes, couldnt let him go. it was bizarre. never liked bob THAT much, but it felt right to be over there. hes cleaned himself up, and apparently has done much with his life. i cant wait to see his son though. he was asleep when i got there. the last time i saw him he was maybe 4 years old, a couple months away from being 5 and not in kindergarden yet, and he had just taken a bath when he ran into bob's doorway, looked at each of us, then dropped his towel! then of course he ran away, came back, and did it 2 more times! lol, it was frickin hilarious, he was so cute and such a good boy. called me mommy once, but bob said it was cuz i spent more time playing with him and cuz my name is so similar, so instead of saying me-me he said mommy. makes sense. but joey is in 1st grade now (2.5 years later) and quite modest, im sure he doesnt remember me, but itd be great to chill with him, i love little kids, especially that age when theyre boys, theyre crazy!
time for work! bleh, so exhausted, but im in the register room so itll be easy and ill have people to talk with. so yeah
rock on!
i should've known it was gonna be crappy weather today when my fingers started swelling up last night.
i hurt. not getting run over by a train hurt, or being hit by a tractor trailer hurt, more like being nailed by a car going 30mph hurt. i dislike days like this. especially since my dose went down yesterday, cuz theres withdrawal pain to and all the shit that goes along with it like panic attacks, cold sweats, and inability to sit still. not to mention the migraines. thats probably the worse part. feels like someones trying to push my eyes out of their sockets....ew, that's not a pleasant thought!
still having the best week ever! saw bob last night and it kicked ass, he's very different from the way he used to be, much more fun to hang out with, i very much enjoyed his company, and the attention. hes always been affectionate with me. the odd part is that this was the first guy ive actually gotten it from without being totally sickened, disgusted, and angered. since chris and i broke up i havent been too much for things like that, aside from michael (and its cuz he has a gf and it wont go anywhere), but it made me really happy. as soon as i walked in i mustve hugged him for 5 minutes, couldnt let him go. it was bizarre. never liked bob THAT much, but it felt right to be over there. hes cleaned himself up, and apparently has done much with his life. i cant wait to see his son though. he was asleep when i got there. the last time i saw him he was maybe 4 years old, a couple months away from being 5 and not in kindergarden yet, and he had just taken a bath when he ran into bob's doorway, looked at each of us, then dropped his towel! then of course he ran away, came back, and did it 2 more times! lol, it was frickin hilarious, he was so cute and such a good boy. called me mommy once, but bob said it was cuz i spent more time playing with him and cuz my name is so similar, so instead of saying me-me he said mommy. makes sense. but joey is in 1st grade now (2.5 years later) and quite modest, im sure he doesnt remember me, but itd be great to chill with him, i love little kids, especially that age when theyre boys, theyre crazy!
time for work! bleh, so exhausted, but im in the register room so itll be easy and ill have people to talk with. so yeah
rock on!