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so every week ive been telling people "this is the best week ever! thank you God!" and then the next week is just as good if not better than the last! its frickin amazing!! its like all the small things that should bother me dont anymore, cuz i know that things will work out if i just keep doing whats right and follow my heart, and they always do! but im not stressed anymore! got a letter from probation that i hafta go in and bring proof of going to three meetings a week-well i dont have that proof cuz i had no way to track them, but you know what? im not worried cuz God will work things out for me when the time comes!
and then last night i went to haven. totally dead there. and yet, i saw mocha who apologized and we hugged and made up, but i really wasnt too upset with him, i just push people away when they start shoing they care about me and get pissed off that they could be so weak as to be fooled by my acting, even though im not trying to be manipulative. regardless, i went to haven, made up with mocha, ran into jeremy's little brother who tried to kiss me but i stood my ground and said no and ended up instead having a great conversation with him, had a funny conversation with the guy standing next to me at the bar, saw michael and had a great conversation with him, then when i went outside i saw joe. i dont know joe's last name, but he hangs out with bob l. and nick and used to hang out at eric's house all the time. i hadnt seen the kid in at least 2 years, and he gave me bob's number, cuz i havent seen him since before he moved and my number changed before i could get his, and i gave joe mine, and then i called bob today and it rocked! he was totally shocked and happy and im gonna visit him tonight. itll be really weird not having to stay inside or at his house, im supposed to go to the movies with him and nick on saturday, and its gonna be totally bizarre. i cant remember the last time i saw bob without his ankle bracelet on.
oh so happy!!! and gorgeous weather! now to go find a new job while i work today!! woohoo!
and then last night i went to haven. totally dead there. and yet, i saw mocha who apologized and we hugged and made up, but i really wasnt too upset with him, i just push people away when they start shoing they care about me and get pissed off that they could be so weak as to be fooled by my acting, even though im not trying to be manipulative. regardless, i went to haven, made up with mocha, ran into jeremy's little brother who tried to kiss me but i stood my ground and said no and ended up instead having a great conversation with him, had a funny conversation with the guy standing next to me at the bar, saw michael and had a great conversation with him, then when i went outside i saw joe. i dont know joe's last name, but he hangs out with bob l. and nick and used to hang out at eric's house all the time. i hadnt seen the kid in at least 2 years, and he gave me bob's number, cuz i havent seen him since before he moved and my number changed before i could get his, and i gave joe mine, and then i called bob today and it rocked! he was totally shocked and happy and im gonna visit him tonight. itll be really weird not having to stay inside or at his house, im supposed to go to the movies with him and nick on saturday, and its gonna be totally bizarre. i cant remember the last time i saw bob without his ankle bracelet on.
oh so happy!!! and gorgeous weather! now to go find a new job while i work today!! woohoo!