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Joe and Sarah are helping out my MIL for a few hours so I'm on my own for a little bit. I've finally come close to catching up on sleep after having mild insomnia since the week before Sarah's birthday and sleeping *not at all* Tuesday night (it's a miracle I didn't fall asleep on the drive out to renegade_geek's house for yardwork on Wednesday) but I'm still exhausted. Yesterday was GSE and then music-and-fireworks in Branch Brook park with a bunch of local friends until late. Today was fairy scouts at my place, and it was one of those days when the girls want me to be engaged with them the entire time. I could sleep for three days.
So I'm wrecked and could use some complete and utter downtime. I wish the new SPN DVDs were here, but in their place maybe I could find some Leverage or White Collar on TV, or see what's On Demand. Make myself some angel hair and just collapse on the futon.
But aside from feeling wrecked, I'm also feeling depressed in that sort of "I'm out of shape and uninformed and untalented" sort of way -- which generally means I haven't been paying enough attention to the fitness and reading and practicing aspects of my life. (When I'm exercising every day I feel pretty good even before I've seen many concrete fitness gains. But miss three days in a row and it's all "oh, I'm so old and weak. I suck.") It doesn't help that I was so disappointed about missing the Legends dinner on Saturday, and I've been looking at the photos of everybody all dressed up and been feeling... envious and frumpy and boring.
Watching TV and collapsing on the futon is not going to make me feel any better. Exercising, making myself a healthy dinner, practicing my bass and banjo, and doing some of my reading. Maybe seeding my calendar a little. *That* will make me feel better. Mmm, and maybe do my retreat, get in a self-hypnosis session and tonight's meditation.
Okay. Getting up.
ETA: Oh, and it helps even less that all the alternative ed folks were at the AERO conference last week, where I had such an amazing experience, two years ago. It took longer than I expected, but I think I'm ready to be getting back onto that particular horse. Not ready to start a new free school, not yet, but if L starts hers in January I think Sarah and I'll be volunteering/learning there a couple days a week. And if not, I'm thinking I'll be hosting a series of salons next year, connected to some of IDEA's work. Right now, though, it feels like all my interesting stuff is in the past, and when I'm this tired it's a little hard to believe I'll ever have the energy and resources to do anything interesting again. :(
ETA2: Ah, yes, and my sister, my mom, and my aunt left this afternoon to spend a week and a half in Italy together. So, you know, yeah, what with the total lack of galas and conferences and European vacations, I can see why maybe I'm feeling a little dull.
So I'm wrecked and could use some complete and utter downtime. I wish the new SPN DVDs were here, but in their place maybe I could find some Leverage or White Collar on TV, or see what's On Demand. Make myself some angel hair and just collapse on the futon.
But aside from feeling wrecked, I'm also feeling depressed in that sort of "I'm out of shape and uninformed and untalented" sort of way -- which generally means I haven't been paying enough attention to the fitness and reading and practicing aspects of my life. (When I'm exercising every day I feel pretty good even before I've seen many concrete fitness gains. But miss three days in a row and it's all "oh, I'm so old and weak. I suck.") It doesn't help that I was so disappointed about missing the Legends dinner on Saturday, and I've been looking at the photos of everybody all dressed up and been feeling... envious and frumpy and boring.
Watching TV and collapsing on the futon is not going to make me feel any better. Exercising, making myself a healthy dinner, practicing my bass and banjo, and doing some of my reading. Maybe seeding my calendar a little. *That* will make me feel better. Mmm, and maybe do my retreat, get in a self-hypnosis session and tonight's meditation.
Okay. Getting up.
ETA: Oh, and it helps even less that all the alternative ed folks were at the AERO conference last week, where I had such an amazing experience, two years ago. It took longer than I expected, but I think I'm ready to be getting back onto that particular horse. Not ready to start a new free school, not yet, but if L starts hers in January I think Sarah and I'll be volunteering/learning there a couple days a week. And if not, I'm thinking I'll be hosting a series of salons next year, connected to some of IDEA's work. Right now, though, it feels like all my interesting stuff is in the past, and when I'm this tired it's a little hard to believe I'll ever have the energy and resources to do anything interesting again. :(
ETA2: Ah, yes, and my sister, my mom, and my aunt left this afternoon to spend a week and a half in Italy together. So, you know, yeah, what with the total lack of galas and conferences and European vacations, I can see why maybe I'm feeling a little dull.