please tell me there's something better

[dying_siren]

Life is so uncomfortable at the moment. Gemma knows about me liking him. Just when I thought my life was just starting to be free from him I end up being clawed back by him, its so difficult that I dont think I can handle it. I know I can live without him but my heart doeesnt think so. I shouldnt be feeling this way anymore about him, I AM A CHRISTIAN but at the same time I am me so I just cannot cope with all of this at once its jst so much to bare.

I really think I am becomming obsessed with him WHICH ISNT RIGHT because I dont know the difference, I want to be around him all the time. Which is kinda stalkery.

I dont know what to do.