scream away my mental health
new theme! it's only taken me how many years to give in and upgrade to S2? yes, i was running S1. i liked it. i haven't changed my layout in years. so sue me.
now it kind of looks like a black-and-white film. or a big blank wall waiting to be graffitti'd.
you know, i used to map out blank walls around the city, dream of sneaking out one night and painting a three-story-high Wonder Woman or something. pity i dislike heights and have no artistic talent, lol.
anyway.
i always end up updating here when i'm feeling low, or drained, or bored. today is the first. i swear, my day has only gone downhill since the free coffee i had this morning. i'm just... bleh. i think i might be too absorbed in my work. or not absorbed enough. i've been getting really annoyed at people lately. like, *really* annoyed. and sulky. heck, i'm sulking right now. i just don't care about the inanities anymore. i just want to sit in the quiet and do my work, not disturbing anyone.
sigh.
it's not all bad, though. i find out about summer scholarships on friday. my head's kind of exploding, i think if i don't get one i'l break down or something. the idea of working summer retail again? enough to make me want to break something necessary so that i can't work.
god i'd love a holiday. but i'd take research instead if i can.
so yeah. hmm. dependant on that is whether i have a breakdown this weekend or not.
also, i'm trying to pack and clean the house, and write an A grade thesis, so that we can move to nicer digs and i can get a scholarship for next year and not have to work 2-3 days a week to fund my working the other 4-5.
*sigh*
i'm going to go do something inane like crochet dishcloths to make me feel better. at least that makes me feel productive. :/
/pityparty
now it kind of looks like a black-and-white film. or a big blank wall waiting to be graffitti'd.
you know, i used to map out blank walls around the city, dream of sneaking out one night and painting a three-story-high Wonder Woman or something. pity i dislike heights and have no artistic talent, lol.
anyway.
i always end up updating here when i'm feeling low, or drained, or bored. today is the first. i swear, my day has only gone downhill since the free coffee i had this morning. i'm just... bleh. i think i might be too absorbed in my work. or not absorbed enough. i've been getting really annoyed at people lately. like, *really* annoyed. and sulky. heck, i'm sulking right now. i just don't care about the inanities anymore. i just want to sit in the quiet and do my work, not disturbing anyone.
sigh.
it's not all bad, though. i find out about summer scholarships on friday. my head's kind of exploding, i think if i don't get one i'l break down or something. the idea of working summer retail again? enough to make me want to break something necessary so that i can't work.
god i'd love a holiday. but i'd take research instead if i can.
so yeah. hmm. dependant on that is whether i have a breakdown this weekend or not.
also, i'm trying to pack and clean the house, and write an A grade thesis, so that we can move to nicer digs and i can get a scholarship for next year and not have to work 2-3 days a week to fund my working the other 4-5.
*sigh*
i'm going to go do something inane like crochet dishcloths to make me feel better. at least that makes me feel productive. :/
/pityparty