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to be honest I don't know whats going on. These random moments from day to day I feel lost like I can't do or accomplish anything I am forgetfull and sometimes I don't even remember what happend the hour or even the day before. Maybe its because I don't sleep much anymore or maybe its because I am upset that I can't take the next step in my life which for others its easy but for me its nearly impossible.....I am at a loss but it doesn't make any sense because my heart aches so much and I don't know why I wish I did. the feeling I have is that I feel as if I have failed my friends and I think that is why my heart aches so much I try to be there all the time and I just don't know what to do anymore. I am being pulled in so many directions I am just going to take a vacation and see if that will make a difference things are just so complicated my best friend is pregnant and I can't go back to school right now the hospital is giving me the run around about my job and people are complaining to me about everything and I don't get anyone to listen to me when I need to get something off my chest all I hear is james I need advice or james can you drop what you're doing to help me fix my problem and when its my turn everyone is like aww stop complaining....I think I am starting to understand what is going on I have so much rage and anger built up it is starting to affect my judgement and mentality. I need a time out if anyone wants to contact me I will be at home so call CHRIS HILBISH to get my home number as well as my Cell.