Obsessed
I have to stop living my life with various and frequently changing obsessions as the driving force. Last week it was being obsessed with getting that Bowie concert recorder. I spent way too much money on it and it didn't even happen. And now I am getting ready to go to this Tori concert and I am doing the same thing. I have MD recorder and I am trying to get the right mic for it. Turns out it needs an optical input, which I was told by RatShack does not exist for a mic. Great. What a wonderful use of my money. But anyway, why can't I just go to the concert and enjoy it like everybody else? Where did I get this crazy idea which is running my day that it has to be recordeed? Sure, it'd be nice, but it won't happen! Can I not get over this?
And it's not just this. It happens to me all the time. I have to minimize my obsessions and diversify. If I spent half the energy I spend on David Bowie or other such overblown "elements" of my life, I would be able to still enjoy them, as well as lots of other things which that decrease would allow me the benefit of.
But this is something I've struggled with my whole life. I doubt it will ever change.
And it's not just this. It happens to me all the time. I have to minimize my obsessions and diversify. If I spent half the energy I spend on David Bowie or other such overblown "elements" of my life, I would be able to still enjoy them, as well as lots of other things which that decrease would allow me the benefit of.
But this is something I've struggled with my whole life. I doubt it will ever change.