Sometime I forget I'm human.....
It's weird, I dunno how to explain it. We all have hopes and dreams, I do but I don't care about them I could achieve my plans or not I don't really care. I work to earn money, I pay my bills and spend the rest on... stuff.... really there is no other word for it but stuff it ranges from food to gas to ky jelly to dates with my g/f. What do I want? Nothing, I have all that I need and wanting more would just make me greedy. I feel this way yet I also feel an emptiness, and longing for something more. If I do not figure out what that something is I feel I shall go mad until my death. This great nothing I feel is not filled by helping people, by not helping people, it does not help when I'm nice, it does not fill when I'm a dick to people. There is nothing I do or don't do that makes this feeling go away.
I get into debates with people and later I ask myself "what was the point of that," Everything thats going on in the world and all I can say is "whats the point," Ohh you say, "well you just feel like that because you have yet to live life and become mature." I tell you this if you think I have not experince life you are wrong. I have seen births, deaths, love, and hate. I have felt loved and hated. I have given love and hate and everything in between from compassion to ingoreness. I have touched people and people have touched me but still I'm eager for something more something more fulfilling.
Before school starts I'm just going to take a day off, turn my cell phone off, find a private part on the beach and just watch the waves come in and out, and I will not leave until 30 min after sunset. Why am I going to do this.... I dunno just something I think well help me clear my mind or help me find how to fill in the empty.
I get into debates with people and later I ask myself "what was the point of that," Everything thats going on in the world and all I can say is "whats the point," Ohh you say, "well you just feel like that because you have yet to live life and become mature." I tell you this if you think I have not experince life you are wrong. I have seen births, deaths, love, and hate. I have felt loved and hated. I have given love and hate and everything in between from compassion to ingoreness. I have touched people and people have touched me but still I'm eager for something more something more fulfilling.
Before school starts I'm just going to take a day off, turn my cell phone off, find a private part on the beach and just watch the waves come in and out, and I will not leave until 30 min after sunset. Why am I going to do this.... I dunno just something I think well help me clear my mind or help me find how to fill in the empty.