secrets

[drjessi]

too many feelings
and secrets about feelings.

i can't tell him though - he doesn't want or need to know anymore, nor should he have to.
i want to know how his life is but he doesn't talk to me.
i suppose i wouldn't want to talk to me either

jack said today that we all need to feel wanted but no one wants to feel needed.
i still can't decide if that was deep or just irritating.

i'm back in canberra again
and i feel suffocated.

why do i always struggle with life?
i've had a pretty good semester as far as it all goes
but i just can't take it anymore.

i want him to be happy
i want them all to be happy
and i'm just not good enough for it all.

i can't breathe - why is it always about me?
i can't explain how i feel about you without hurting you.