soulmates
you know, i thought i'd found my soulmate...
maybe that's why i feel so empty and kind of not whole. and like my soul hates me.
i promised myself that i wouldn't do anything to hurt people this semester. especially this one person who i apparently hurt with my behaviour last semester.
he's happy now - i don't know if he knows how miserable i am though trying not to hurt him. he'd probably think i was stupid for it anyway.
it's good - i want him to be happy. but it still doesn't stop me from feeling miserable.
the way i chose to mend my pain didn't seem to work - but i was still judged for it. not like it was immoral, just self destructive.
maybe i wanted to feel like i meant something to someone
or maybe i was just horny.
that doesn't give you the right to judge me does it?
especially since you didn't ask or even try to understand, you just got upset because it was about *you* because it's always about *you*
the way i tried to fix myself didn't have anything to do with you.
humm i have been dating this boy for the last month and a bit - and i think i'm going to break my promise
because he isn't enough
i'm going to hurt someone and i don't want to...
but i'm going to hurt him eventually anyway.
i hate this fucking city.
you made me move away from you
and now i have no one who cares.
maybe that's why i feel so empty and kind of not whole. and like my soul hates me.
i promised myself that i wouldn't do anything to hurt people this semester. especially this one person who i apparently hurt with my behaviour last semester.
he's happy now - i don't know if he knows how miserable i am though trying not to hurt him. he'd probably think i was stupid for it anyway.
it's good - i want him to be happy. but it still doesn't stop me from feeling miserable.
the way i chose to mend my pain didn't seem to work - but i was still judged for it. not like it was immoral, just self destructive.
maybe i wanted to feel like i meant something to someone
or maybe i was just horny.
that doesn't give you the right to judge me does it?
especially since you didn't ask or even try to understand, you just got upset because it was about *you* because it's always about *you*
the way i tried to fix myself didn't have anything to do with you.
humm i have been dating this boy for the last month and a bit - and i think i'm going to break my promise
because he isn't enough
i'm going to hurt someone and i don't want to...
but i'm going to hurt him eventually anyway.
i hate this fucking city.
you made me move away from you
and now i have no one who cares.