same old..same old
So things are pretty dull lately. I mean I have been having some fun, just sorta getting back to the calm routine of things. School, work, sleep on occasion. Nothing too outstandingly fun happening but I am actually alright with that. I am enjoying the routine sorta. I do crave some excitement though. I guess winter is for hibernation anyways. Just not sure how much of it I really want to experience.
For the first time in a few years, yesterday, Valentine's Day, was actually pretty enjoyable. I didn't wake up with a bitter hateful rage inside of me. I was fairly optimistic and felt good about things. Yes, going to the movies and seeing sickingly lovey-dovey couples all over the place sorta made me sick inside but it passed. Maybe I finally got over that anger? I don't know but it's a good sign none the less. Got to sing to people and make them happy and I had fun at work, so it was a good day.
The snowperson I built, actually ended up looking horribly too close to a Rosie O'Donnell clone, but I completed it. Not sure who won yet..find out tomorrow. I got my review for work yesterday too and it made me really happy and feel even better about my job so that's always a good thing.
Still working on finding colleges to go to..I've applied to some.. still need to kick myself in the butt on that one and make sure I get it all completed. Slowly but surely. I guess I'm just trying to delay my future because I'm scared of change and making myself have to grow up. It must be done soon though or I'll never forgive myself. I need motivation. I don't know why cuz what can be more motivating then getting out of my parents' house and getting to go to a good school to do what I love for the rest of my life, especially since I have no one holding me back...only myself. I know all this yet can't bring myself to do it...