Yep, I'm the one who is a bitch.
Today isn’t a good day. I was going to tell a story but every time I got to the first sentence I started to cry. I think I’m in one of those stages where all sorts of little things that would normally not faze me, hurt like hell…
Yesterday was a lot of fun I met up with Bif for brunch and then we went shopping. Jewelry, shoes, porn, make-up… we bought it all. Intermixed with food and girl-talk. She let me pick out a pair of shoes for her, and she picked out a bracelet for me. It was really nice to get to know her better; she is really one of the coolest chicks I know.
Niko has been good to me, he lets me sit in silence a lot and hugs me without asking him to. He took me to dinner last night at an Italian restaurant and I ate until I was so full I almost couldn’t walk. I think we both have a lot we aren’t saying, or maybe we don’t need to say it - I haven’t really decided yet. I think I need to leave soon, or Mel will kill me for hogging her boyfriend. And being in New York is even more difficult than I thought.
I decided to let Yoko stay with Albert. I’ll just have to try to get my kitten time when I come visit, it’s sad she will barely know me.
I still can’t say a lot of what I want to say. Why am I so stupid to think that I’m as important to people as they are to me? Time and time again it’s proven that that isn’t the case and yet in the day-to-day scheme of things I still believe it.
Yesterday was a lot of fun I met up with Bif for brunch and then we went shopping. Jewelry, shoes, porn, make-up… we bought it all. Intermixed with food and girl-talk. She let me pick out a pair of shoes for her, and she picked out a bracelet for me. It was really nice to get to know her better; she is really one of the coolest chicks I know.
Niko has been good to me, he lets me sit in silence a lot and hugs me without asking him to. He took me to dinner last night at an Italian restaurant and I ate until I was so full I almost couldn’t walk. I think we both have a lot we aren’t saying, or maybe we don’t need to say it - I haven’t really decided yet. I think I need to leave soon, or Mel will kill me for hogging her boyfriend. And being in New York is even more difficult than I thought.
I decided to let Yoko stay with Albert. I’ll just have to try to get my kitten time when I come visit, it’s sad she will barely know me.
I still can’t say a lot of what I want to say. Why am I so stupid to think that I’m as important to people as they are to me? Time and time again it’s proven that that isn’t the case and yet in the day-to-day scheme of things I still believe it.