I wrote last night... for the first time in so long
Last night before i went to bed, i had the urge to grab a pen and old book and write words stuck in my mind. I guess I just needed some kind of release from the thoughts that had been crushing my mind space. It is very raw... in need of editing... but at least it is out... at least i wrote something. Small accomplishment for me. Perhaps the trip to byron helped. After i wrote what i did, i received a text from him, asking me to go away with him for the day today, however i have to look after riley and he left at 4am this morning in a ute that is only big enough for the two of us and no baby clip for riley's seat. Next time. Made me feel like he wanted to spend time with me for once...
Spinning round, but jammed like egg in a whisk
Trying to break the chain of lonely thoughts only to be swallowed by the silent sound of beating drums
Dark twisted thoughts in a loop of life
This tunnel never ends
Love me
Want me
Touch me
Torture me
Throw me away like yesterdays forgotten news
Sweep me back up
Regurgitate your memories
Act on thoughts and heart beats
In an instant I may vanish
Who knows what tomorrow brings
Will you miss me when i'm not in your life?
Do you miss me know?
Are you thinking about me the way i am you?
Hold me til it makes sense
Hold me til everythings alright
Hold me til we are together
Hold me til eternity dies
Meh... looking back on it... i really was tired and thoughts were all over the place and in need of some order... oh well... off to deal with a crying child (sleeeeeeeppppp time! and my shower time)
Love and light all
xoxoxo