oh my..."Jesus wasn't a Jew," oh...the random things you hear
Ugh...my days become longer each day and I continue to grow more and more...apathetic is the word choice here. I am just starting to lose all momentum I have had for this year. I wish that could change, I wish I had the energy that I had during other times in my life. I am feeling like I am growing up at an unbelievable rate.
I am really excited for this week...I guess. I have to be working on my campaign right now, and I have a big test tomorrow. I am not happy about either of those because i have a lot to do for both, and I do not have all the time in the world to print out posters then go to Kinko's...I wish someone could acompany me so I wouldn't be so lonely when I do all of this. I hate doing things alone, I like having people there helping me out with stuff...I hate being alone.
So Matt's dad is the biggest fucking ass hole on Earth. Last night Matt wasn't good at all, his throat was swollen and he was really warm. I told him to tell his dad that he needed to stay home from school tomorrow, but his dad basically said "screw you matt, you are fine, get over it." Ugh...that just makes me angry. My mother would go to great lengths to just make sure that I was fine, and if I really was sick she would allow me to stay home. His dad is so worried about his own affairs that he could give a shit about how Matt is. His step mom also keeps rescheduling time to take matt to the doctor and the kid does need to get to the doctor. Ugh, some people just make me crazy. I think I may go pick him up from work tonight, if that is at all possible.
I am starting to seriously rethink this idea of going to "Pride" this saturday. First of all, I have a deepened hatred for gay people. I swear, yes...we like men...and we don't like women, so why must we try and become them? I swear to fucking God it is ridiculous. They are the reason that society hates homosexuals and I do not blame society one bit. Flaunting homosexuality is probably the worst thing anyone could do, it is something I try my best never to do because I find it to be ridiculous. Now my boyfriend wants me to spend many hours with those whom I hate. Ugh...it will be a very long day.
So I heard that Cori's dance concert is this Thursday and Friday. I am going to try my best to find the time to see it. I wish I did have the time, but this week is going to be very busy. I haven't found out if Brian and Erin are going...I wouldn't be able to go get them if they were able to go. That sucks, usually i am totally able to do that.
So my mom got the family package at the rec center and I am going to start going there again. I am super duper excited about it because I used to love being in shape and making my body better. Over the last 5 months I have been doing nothing but bad to my body and I haven't really been that active. Now I can get in shape and get one hot bod.
Passover is a week from tonight and Matt should be going with me to it, but he is not because of ignorance. My mother says give her time, but I cannot give her forever. I am gay now and you have to brace for it because i have someone I care about and he is a part of my life. I wish I had parents who would understand this kind of stuff and would be happy to deal with it.
I am done with this entry...ugh
I am really excited for this week...I guess. I have to be working on my campaign right now, and I have a big test tomorrow. I am not happy about either of those because i have a lot to do for both, and I do not have all the time in the world to print out posters then go to Kinko's...I wish someone could acompany me so I wouldn't be so lonely when I do all of this. I hate doing things alone, I like having people there helping me out with stuff...I hate being alone.
So Matt's dad is the biggest fucking ass hole on Earth. Last night Matt wasn't good at all, his throat was swollen and he was really warm. I told him to tell his dad that he needed to stay home from school tomorrow, but his dad basically said "screw you matt, you are fine, get over it." Ugh...that just makes me angry. My mother would go to great lengths to just make sure that I was fine, and if I really was sick she would allow me to stay home. His dad is so worried about his own affairs that he could give a shit about how Matt is. His step mom also keeps rescheduling time to take matt to the doctor and the kid does need to get to the doctor. Ugh, some people just make me crazy. I think I may go pick him up from work tonight, if that is at all possible.
I am starting to seriously rethink this idea of going to "Pride" this saturday. First of all, I have a deepened hatred for gay people. I swear, yes...we like men...and we don't like women, so why must we try and become them? I swear to fucking God it is ridiculous. They are the reason that society hates homosexuals and I do not blame society one bit. Flaunting homosexuality is probably the worst thing anyone could do, it is something I try my best never to do because I find it to be ridiculous. Now my boyfriend wants me to spend many hours with those whom I hate. Ugh...it will be a very long day.
So I heard that Cori's dance concert is this Thursday and Friday. I am going to try my best to find the time to see it. I wish I did have the time, but this week is going to be very busy. I haven't found out if Brian and Erin are going...I wouldn't be able to go get them if they were able to go. That sucks, usually i am totally able to do that.
So my mom got the family package at the rec center and I am going to start going there again. I am super duper excited about it because I used to love being in shape and making my body better. Over the last 5 months I have been doing nothing but bad to my body and I haven't really been that active. Now I can get in shape and get one hot bod.
Passover is a week from tonight and Matt should be going with me to it, but he is not because of ignorance. My mother says give her time, but I cannot give her forever. I am gay now and you have to brace for it because i have someone I care about and he is a part of my life. I wish I had parents who would understand this kind of stuff and would be happy to deal with it.
I am done with this entry...ugh