"Friends Only"

[dragnfly]

I've been thinking for a while that I have little influence over or effect on the people I encounter. The things that I value or care about just really aren't important to other people and don't change how they think or feel about things and definitely don't affect what they do. Hence, there's really no reason to me to have friends on here. And this isn't against anyone in particular; barely anyone even reads this. We like to think we make a difference in other people's lives, that you can influence the behavior of others in a good way. But here it's like you have to perform to get the most people to read and comment on your journal. I'm not going to worry about this. I've never wanted to hang all my laundry out here to dry. If I'm going to write in here about my feelings or my daily happenings, it's going to be for me. I'm not here to entertain the world. Not that I'm very entertaining. I'm just tired of wasting my time on something that makes no difference.

Your sorry eyes, they cut through the bone
They make it hard to leave you alone
Leave you here wearing your wounds
Waving your guns at somebody new

Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost cause.

There's too many people you used to know
They see you coming, they see you go
They know your secrets and you know theirs
This town is crazy, but nobody cares

Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost cause.

I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause

There's a place where you are going
You ain't never been before
There's no one laughing at your back now
No one standing at your door
Is that what you thought love was for?

Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost
Baby, I'm a lost cause.

I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause